The Mind of a Teenager

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    I suffer from many mental illnesses. The one that is the hardest to deal with today is the extreme anger issues. And while yes, anger issues are talked about, they're often romanticized. So, let's talk about it.

    My little sister is all of my biggest triggers wrapped up into one human being. Those triggers being disrespect to my mom, disrespect in general, and loud angry screaming. Which she manages to do at least once a day.

    Today it was bad. Really bad. They had just gotten home and as soon as she came through the door she was screaming at me and my mom. And do you know what I did? I help her by her shoulders against the couch so she couldn't hit me and screamed so loud for so long that the neighbors came to make sure everything was okay.

     I'm now at a friends house. Thankfully my mom is incredible and understands so she drove me here. And on the way here I told her I could not stay in that house anymore because I would either kill my sister or myself.

    Anger issues aren't cute, they aren't kinky. It's wanting to kill somebody because they do something that upsets you. Anger issues is putting holes in your walls because you have nothing else to take your anger out on. It's wanting to push somebody to the floor and pound on their face with your fists until you see a sufficient amount of blood.

    I hate being like this. I want a normal, happy family and a normal, happy high school life. Unfortunately the multiple chemical inbalances in my head keep me from doing so. And god am I done with this.