Latch (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

30. What Goes Up

Harry's POV

Well, this is nothing like i had expected. I thought i'd be living the good life, kicking back and watching the pounds roll in as my bank number go up, but the song hasn't even been released yet. This sucks. I knew that i'd feel kinda bad about the whole Liv situation, but fuck if i knew it'd feel this bad. Everything, and i mean everything reminds me of her. It's been a month and she's still the first thing i think of when i wake up, the last thing that springs to mind when i go to bed and she's consumed my dreams... and my nightmares.

Apparently, according to the guys, i call her name in my sleep. That scares me, i even want her in my subconscious state of mind. I fantasize about that evening, trying with every fibre of my being to remember exactly how she looked, how she smelt, ho she felt to touch. I force memories of her eyes to produce themselves and revel in the fact i was the only one to know her. To really know her, to understand her completely.

And she knew me, she knew everything i was. Who i'm not and who i wanted to be. She was the best friend anyone could ever hope of having and i ruined that friendship. Who am i kidding, it was no mere friendship, it was a concealed love unadmitable to the world. A secret love affair, so secret we didn't even know about it, until it was too late.

But anyway, Liam's walking in, so enough relishing in the sweet clear memories that i tainted with a dirty heart, and a dirty love.

"Hey Harry!" he chirped, Liam was a really nice lad and we got on really well. Actually all the guys are great, all really nice, funny genuine guys. Why the hell they all seem to like me so much is a mystery on earth.

"Hey Liam, what are you up to?" I asked. Shawn had put us all up in one of his houses so we'd all be together and get to know each other before the 'big unavailing.'

"Oh nothing, I was just reading over your song and-" My song? If only you knew the talented beauty behind the song Li. " And it's really amazing, you're really talented Harry." He socked my shoulder and cracked a big squinted smile. "Harry, what's wrong?" he asked, noticing my frown.

I can trust Liam, can't I? I need to get this the hell of my chest and out of my conscience before i swing from this roof.

"Liam... I didn't really write the song."

And one sob story and multiple gasps from Liam later and he was...sympathizing with me?

"She'll understand in time Harry, you really should call or borrow my car and go visit her, if you leave it for too long, things will never be the same. And she sounds too special to loose." He half smiled.

"Things will never be the same anyway, i fucked up. Now i have to let her move on, she doesn't need a person like me in her life anymore." I sighed.

Liam stood up and shook his head. "Well, mate, i think your'e making a mistake but it's not my place... see you for dinner. yeah?" He scratched the back of his neck and left me alone, in the cold material living room, with nothing but my dangerous thoughts.

Olivia's POV

"Don't tickle me!!" Anastasia squealed as i chased her around the sitting room. Avery and i were put on babysitting duty while his mum had to go out to some meeting or something. Honestly, i haven't thought of Harry all day while playing with the kids. They keep me occupied and fill my head with nonsensical questions and topics unaffiliated with Harry.

"I will!" I laughed with a light heart as Adrianne and Alex joined in. I had just began playing dollies with the trio of beautiful, girls when Avery walked in quite awkwardly and unsure of himself.

"Uhm, do you want tea Olivia?" He asked, obviously uneasy and unsure of our current situation. As am i to be totally honest.

"Yes please. Listen, we should talk for a bit, yeah?" i suggested and he nodded. "I'm gonna go out to the kitchen with your brother for a bit, will you three make sure my doll has a perfect outfit on for the party?" I asked the girls, giving them something the keep them occupied.

"Yes!" the all giggled in unison. I smiled and walked out with Avery.

"You're really good with kids." I nervously smiled.

"Yeah. i love kids so it's to be expected. I'd love to be a nursery teacher too." I nodded as he handed me a mug of steaming Yorkshire tea. My favorite. "Thanks." I hummed against the rim of the white mug.

"So. I've been thinking alot since you came over... and i guess you're not ready to jump back in and forgive yet but how about we spend time together and see where it goes." He spoke with hopeful eyes and a wanting smile. "And i get that what Harry did was... disgusting and filthy so you'll need time. But for now, I'm a friend who wants to help."

He's saying all the things i want to hear, but he'll never be enough for me. And i can only see this relationship going in one direction...

"It can only go up from here, right?" He smiled widely, i just nodded.

And that was not the direction i had in mind Avery.

A/N: Liv would you just leave Avery tf alone and get out. Ty.
Anyway, if any of ye care or whatever, my twitter is 'ignited_styles' so you guys can talk to me on there if you don't wanna here if you don't know how etc, haha. Once again, 1.09k is an unimaginable feat for me so tysfm!! Ily all!<3
-C.X