疑妻症 : Othello syndrome delusional jealousy; A morbid suspicion about his wife's chastity.

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<疑妻症 : Othello syndrome delusional jealousy; A morbid suspicion about his wife's chastity.>

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-ChoiSeunghyun's point of view.

'SeunghyunAh!'
'Let me go, I need to find KwonJiyong...! It's raining hard! he might be getting wet!!'
'I'm... I'm scared... Please stay with me... Please?'
'Bitch... KwonJiyong might be crying by now because of YOU...'
'That, that's just a boy... The sky won't accept you both, anyways. Just... Just stay with me and love each other... Hm?'
'My love... My love is only KwonJiyong.'
I spoke to her, and looked at my wet school-uniform, and went into the store of suits. Then I bought &wore on, and had to run around to find KwonJiyong with umbrella.
Wonder how many hours I ran, the rain has stopped... And a beautiful boy showed up in my eyes, he was muttering himself,with all of his wet clothes on, as he looked up at the sky, and called somebody on his phone, and had full of air in his cheeks so cutely.
My phone was ringing in my suits pocket, as I giggled and answered the phone... Just before, like an angel and beautiful boy, abruptly made my heart broke down.

-"LeeSeunghyun...!"
With his beautiful voice, called LeeSeunghyun name than my name ChoiSeunghyun, I became so angry when that beautiful boy's voice called another's name. The thing I really became so angrier, was that he supposed he called LeeSeunghyun.
"Are you deluding yourself that ChoiSeunghyun is LeeSeunghyun?"
-"......ChoiSeunghyun?"
The sweet voice started to tremble gradually, and I stared at him from here, started to grimace my face.
I hated him.
I ran to search you, away from the girl you were misunderstanding, but you were seeking for LeeSeunghyun, not ChoiSeunghyun.
"You couldn't wait to be slapped?"
-"......"
He was shaking his hand hard when I was looking at him far here, barely holding his phone. Was I existing dreadful for you still...
"I did quite nicely to you... Now you are running away?"
-"ChoiSeunghyun..."
He was calling my name with that sweet voice, and got gooseflesh all over.
I... Really love you so much, but I guess I'm only an existence of fearful for you?
"I don't know why you did this, but I'm really mad right now"
-"......!"
"KwonJiyong, now you don't see?"
-"......"
"You are always in my hand. Didn't I tell you before that I can always find you wherever you go?"
-"Choi...Seunghyun..."
I came closer to him, and he was stepping back with his sexy eyes on me. When I came one step closer to him, he started to step one step back.
As expected... I was an existence of fearful one for him.
"Wherever you go, I said I can find you. I bet I told you to stay beside me till you die...?"
-"Don't.. come closer..."
Haha, did you say don't come closer... JiyongAh, my heart is so damn hurt, it's heart breaking.
You didn't know my heart, and said LeeSeunghyun out of your mouth but not ChoiSeunghyun, you're really hateful...
When I didn't express... I know it's my fault..., but you called another person... feels like my heart is tearing into pieces...
When did I start to like you... Don't be afraid... It's that I'm just getting closer to you.
Don't push me away... I'm just giving expression of interest about you...
"Stepping backward once is one strike. get ready for two strike."
"...Damn... ChoiSeunghyun...!"
How come you're pretty when you even curse, are you an angel from the sky...?
Why do you grab my heart like this and don't let go, and what do I do when I die in your arms?
Really... The sky doesn't let us love each other... But why do I keep loving you to death, I wanna go die with you just like this... Then we can love each to the in the sky?
"Of course, you need to stop right there."
He looked sexier under the neon lights. His hair was drenched, looking at me so sexily... Every passing walker looked at him.
The more look into him, this bastard bewitches boys than girls...?
Fuck, I feel awful.
"......"
"You just become like a wild animal when I be nice to you."
"W..What...?"
Your voice was disagreeably surprised, but... You're so cute.
The sight, he is shaking his hand so badly...
"Wild animals need trains."
"Don't treat me like a wild animal...!"
"Seems like a wild fox is jumping around."
"Ahh... Hhhh.."
I grabbed his hair up, maybe because of frowned and looked at me, I loved him just like this.
ChoiSeunghyun, probably possessed into KwonJiyong, when KwonJiyong is even hurt, I'm satisfied with this...
"......Seems like wild fox is impatient to die."
"Let.. Let go... Hhhh..."
"......Pff. Cry more. Let's see."
I wanted him crying more, I grabbed his hand and walked into the hotel that was pretty close.
I can tell what I was doing is really obsession.
Some say this is Othello Syndrome Delusional Jealousy, some say it's more than Othello Syndrome Delusional Jealousy...
Othello Syndrome Delusional Jealousy means has a severe case of delusional jealousy and always doubts his wife's faithfulness.
I came to be jealous and doubt him, asking if he slept with others while I use violence.
......Yeah, I have Othello syndrome Delusional Jealousy.

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"KwonJiyong."
"Aghh... Agh..."
"You and I, I guess we can't have love."
"Hhhp.. Ag.. Agh..."
"Between you and me relationship... I guess we have to finish up here. The sky doesn't even help ChoiSeunghyun and KwonJiyong's love."
"Hhhhf..."
"Why did you, meet this kind of bastard and be like this "
"Please this... Agh...!"
"Poor, KwonJiyong."
KwonJiyong collapsed on the floor so weakly. I took my hand off of his neck, then he sank down in front of me.
I hugged him as I laid him down on the bed, I stroked his long forelock hair as I talked to him with my lips on his lips.
"Because of me, you are facing hardships, JiyongAh... I'm sorry... I didn't know I had a weird illness. I realized that few days ago... I simply liked you a lot, I thought I could only express this way... and My friend brought me to the hospital... so that's how, I knew it that time... That I have Othello syndrome delusional jealousy. So I went back to hospital yesterday, to have treatment, and I saw a person looked familiar age there. That she is, the one you were misunderstanding... But, what she said was, it's been long time to watch movie... She took me to theater... You know what that nurse said...? The girl wont live longer than few days, actually needed to have a complete medical examination in bigger hospital... But she rejected it. After all, she will die soon... said like wanted to die in a mental hospital, and nurse said that girl gets scared when she is alone... So, was receiving psychotherapy, that girl... didn't have any friends. said that she was bullied... So when she was alone all days, one day, the house was on fire and all of her families dies, then that day she was is mental hospital... She gets scared alone, when the nurse was giving me treatment, said, become intimate with her... she's really poor one... so I said OK, then we went to the theater and saw you and LeeSeunghyun was together... Do you know how I felt that time...? It really teared my heart so hurtfully..., like the world abandoned me."
"......"
"When I realized... I was speaking awful and weird thing... You know what I said?, I said she's my girlfriend... Isn't she pretty... But I have this wonderful angel KwonJiyong... I'm such a bastard... Really... I'm really sorry JiYongah... Now... From now, I won't make you hurt... I'm sorry... Sorry... And... Really... Love you."