疑妻症 : Othello syndrome delusional jealousy; A morbid suspicion about his wife's chastity.

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<疑妻症 : Othello syndrome delusional jealousy; A morbid suspicion about his wife's chastity.>

'KwonJiyong, am I really allowed to love you, if a thing won't hurt me, if a thing won't hurt you, how do we have to do now, just... Should we break up?'

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I told Youngbae hurriedly with my phone on my hand tight.
"YoungbaeYah..., Seunghyunie, Is Seunghyun there...?!"
-"You don't have any right to say that."
"......Huh?"
-"Come to the BANG's cafe directly, and see what is here in the cafe, then you can say."
"......"
With the word, I think he hung up. Because I can see ChoiSeunghyun and I are smiling in the picture on my phone's background as it made a sound to end of the call. I was looking outside the window impatiently. All kind of house considered. I knew ChoiSeunghyun wasn't a person who meet other girls while he sets for the anniversary. For this time, tears rolled down because I was really sorry.
"Was it Seunghyunie hyung's call?"
"......"
"He called me too."
"What?"
I looked at LeeSeunghyun, he gave a hollow smile and told me.
"I'm sorry that I didn't tell Hyung. I just wanted to..."
"Are you playing around with me?"
"......"
"I came for you and for you to brush your mind off. But, did you betray like a shit?"
"I..."
"Song of a bitch, you don't have right to talk with me. Shut up and go home."

One hour before 12 o'clock, I came back to Seoul Station. When LeeSeunghyn was paying, I abruptly ran toward BANG's cafe. Tears were falling down on my face, and suddenly i was all thinking was ChoiSeunghyun in my head. ChoiSeunghyun laughing hollowly, crying ChoiSeunghyun, mad ChoiSeunghyun, taunting ChoiSeunghyun... that was everything I love, ChoiSeunghyun. Even though, whoever he loves other girl, likes other girl... At the thought of ChoiSeunghyun that he didn't abandon me, tears flew down constantly.
"SeunghyunAh... Sob..."
After the result of running constantly, there was BANG's cafe sign in front of me, and ran in. At the same time, people of icy gazes welcomed me.
"You came?"
"YoungbaeYah... What was happening...?"
"Seriously, so disappointed of you."
"......Huh?"
"ChoiSeunghyun bought a ring while in one week just because of the one that is you, and he was practicing his acoustic guitar till his fingers worn out."
"......"
"Saying like he doesn't even hurt when he's thinking about you, then says an acoustic guitar was insufficient, with even a piano."
I looked around, all of the tables were flipped off already, also foods were cooled off icily, that was all welcoming me. And with all the flowers looked like ChoiSeunghyun stamped on, roses were all trampled.
"And where is Seunghyunie...?"
"Seunghyunie, because a person who is called Jiyong-ssi, didn't come, he flipped everything off and left."
"......"
The person I saw, Seunghyun's girlfriend?
"You... Seunghyunie girlfriend..."
"...What? What are you talking about?"
"......The other day, you were there for rings with Seunghyun..."
"......Oh, was it Jiyongssi who was following us that time?"
"......"
"I'm just a sister Seunghyun knows. And I'm the owner of the cafe too. he said Jiyong's style is girlish and so he said he needed me. He've said he'll buy masterpiece of bag when I was helping to set, but it became nothing now."
It was short of doubting ChoiSeunghyun, and i left a big wound on him.
I sank down and started to cry with my hand cover.
"......Ahhh... I gave... Sob... I gave a pain on Seunghyun... S.. Sob... I didn't even know... Sob... then with LeeSeunghyun... went to the beach... Just because..."
Youngbae started to beat me with his fist after he heard what I said, and I had to be like this now. If ChoiSeunghyun's friend didn't try to stop Youngbae, I would have been passed and fainted for a while. Youngbae was unable to hold back his anger, he fumed.
"Idiot. I know you are my friend since from the middle school. Also the ChoiSeunghyun too. I didn't have to tell that I knew it from the high school that i still don't hate you. That's why I talked to you on purpose, just because of that. I know you've been beaten up from ChoiSeunghyun. But, choiSeunghyun, just because of you, went to psychiatry too!!"
"Ahh..."
"Wonder how much you're percious..., ChoiSeunghyun is also a bastard. He didn't even know that you've been carrying on with others..."
"......"
"KwonJiyong, you ruined it all. ChoiSeunghyun is really mad right now. I bet you'll be slapped again."
"Sob..."
"Perhaps you'll come back like a dog for him. or be raped again, or he'll be violent again."
"......"
"But, if you still like him, no... if you still LOVE him, go home, right now."
"......?"
I looked at him with suprised eyes, Youngbae was heaving his shoulders as he bent his head down. Ah... Youngbae is crying too.
"ChoiSeunghyun... Said he'll go back to the house, and left... I'm sorry, JiyongAh..."
At the word, I ran toward my apartment hurriedly.
The moonlight was shining mightily, maybe people around were curious why I was running while I cry, they gabbled each other. But, those people didn't even come in my eyes to notice. Because all I was thinking in my head was ChoiSeunghyun, the one and only one.
After minutes to run, I came in the apartment and quickly pressed password, as quickly as I opened the door. What I saw ChoiSeunghyun on sofa with beer on his hand, looking up the ceiling. ChoiSeunghyun made a hollow sound as he looked at me.
"Hah... You came now?"
"......SeunghyunAh."
"Don't call my name like that."
"......SeunghyunAh, I'm sorry... I just noticed today is our three-year anniversary... I'm sorry..."
"......I guess you're not interested in."
"...What are you talking about... No, I..."
"Shut the fuck up. Please."
"......"
"I have nothing to say to you now."
"If I tell you the truth... then will you let me off the hook...?"
"......"
ChoiSeunghyun stood up from the sofa, and came to me, and I looked up at Seunghyun.
"I went to the beach with LeeSeunghyun.
"Pff... Such a excuse."
"If i follow him to the trip on the beach, he said he will confess his heart... That he likes me."
"......"
"I'm sorry... Because I didn't tell you, I'm sorry... Because I misunderstood, I'm sorry... Just... I'm sorry for all..."
"KwonJiyong, am I really allowed to love you, if a thing won't hurt me, if a thing won't hurt you, how do we have to do now, just... Should we break up? Right?"
"......SeunghyunAh, don't do that..."
I gripped his hand, but he shook my hand off, and told me with his cold eyes.
"Get out of my house, now."
"......"
"Again, I don't want to hit you, or rape you, so... Don't emerge in front of my eyes again."
"SeunghyunAh...!!"
ChoiSeunghyun gripped my hair in the end. Then he whispered in my ear again.
"Son of a bitch, do I have to pack things up for you, that you'll get out of the house nicely...? Just get out of my house now, I fucking don't want to see you in front ofl me. If you appear in front of me, I will just kill you right there. Get out of the house yourself. You and I will be dead if you're in the house tomorrow morning."