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"Even though I have no idea if you can hear me, because you're floating ball of rock."
"And then he was all like 'Great, sounds like a plan' like at least ask me first wether or not I want to hang out with these random ass kooks!" I rant to John b over FaceTime.
"That sucks Bee I'm sorry, kooks fucking suck. But maybe this'll be a one time thing ya'know" "Knowing my dad it won't and before I know it, I'll only be seeing you guys at school" I groan in frustration.
"Don't worry mama we're not gonna let that happen!" JJ adds as he pops into the camera frame.
"We'll hold you hostage if we have to" John b adds "You guys already do" I chuckle and the boys smile at me.
I talk to the boys for a little longer then decide to hang up so I can be well rested and attempt to tolerate the kooks.
I put my phone down and open my window climbing onto the roof to get a clear view of the night sky.
"Today wasn't the best" I sigh and look at the moon "It started off fine and now I'm getting forced to hang out with three strangers"
I sigh.
"I still miss mom. I get nightmares sometimes" I pull my knees to my chest.
"I don't wanna tell my friends about it because I don't want them to worry and it's not like I can talk to dad or Isla about it. They've already moved on but it's really hard for me to let go of her" I rest my chin on my knees.
"You're my only outlet to talk to this about. Even though I have no idea if you can hear me, because you're floating ball of rock."
I chuckle at myself then take a deep breath and climb back into my room.
I change and tuck myself into bed drifting off to sleep.
