-ʜᴇᴀᴅ ʜᴇʟᴅ ʜɪɢʜ-(Technoblade x M!Reader)

-24-

I have lost
myself again
and I feel
unsafe
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-Y/N P. O. V-

My breath hitched as the memories came rushing back into my head. I didn't mean to kill him, it was supposed to be Dream. "You're fucking stupid!" I yelled as I gripped my head. "I need Techno.." I started walking to the base. I felt all my emotions get clogged up in my throat. It was numbing. I walked down the familiar streets, heading towards the underground base.

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-Dream's P. O. V-

I collasped in my bed. The others were worried about why I skipped dinner and why Gogy didn't return. I took out my phone, scrolling through the many memories of me and George being stupid. I smiled, I missed him already, yet hes fucking gone. I choked on my guilt as tears rolled down my face. I couldn't stop. I can't lose George, he has to come back..

"Mark my very words Y/N.. You're dead."

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-Y/N P. O. V-

I started running to the base. I needed someone. Anyone. I felt weak. I reached the overgrown base, entering without hesitation. I decended down the stone stairs, once I reached the lounge I started scanning the area for Techno, Phil, Wilbur, Tommy or Tubbo. I just needed someone. I sound so desperate.

"Y/N?" I turned to look at the owner of the voice. "T-Techno?" I said, voice cracking. I felt like it was overwhelming. The monotone pink-haired man examined me over. "You alright..? Is something bothering you?" Techno asked softly. I shook my head, feeling the guilt clog my throat. Techno walked over and engulfed me in a hug. I couldn't hold it in any longer, I sobbed into Techno's chest as he held me close. "I killed him by accident! It was the wrong person.." I heaved, taking sharp inhales. Techno stayed quiet, listening respectfully. "How about we go to our room.." Techno whispered softly. I weakly nodded, I leaned on him a bit more. Techno picked me up walking to the room he slept in.

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-Techno P. O. V-

I was walking around the base before I heard someone enter. I went to go check it out. Their presence felt familiar. I entered the room and saw him. "Y/N?" I asked. The shorter/average/taller male turned around to face me. "T-Techno?" He stuttered. He seemed so helpless and vulnerable. I felt such sympathy yet some concern at the same time. I asked him what was wrong and if something was bothering him. Y/N seemed as if he couldn't speak anymore he shook his head from side to side. I walked over, wrapping my arms around Y/N tightly. Y/N started to let his feelings out. I listened to him.

Accidents happen. No matter how bad it is.

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-Eret P. O. V-

I feel completely forgotten about. Thank the gods that I don't have to work for them and still get paid. The hunters had forgotten that I still have full access to their bounties and information files. Yet again.. You should've never forget a member of the team, whether they're a new member or an elder. They have the same equals god dammit. It's just the 'big' four. I scoffed. "Stupid"

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-3rd person P. O. V-

Y/N and Techno walked to their room. Techno laid down on the bed, laying Y/N down on his chest. Y/N's tears shined in the ceiling's light, Techno made eye contact with Y/N, admiring his beautiful E/C eyes. Y/N laid on Techno's chest, hugging onto him. His breathing returned to his normal, everday, constant breathing. They both shortly fell asleep, holding eachother close to them.

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-Still 3rd person P. O. V.-

Y/N opened his eyes, snapping from asleep to awake between one moment and another. Not that he slept well in the first place. It had been years, weeks  or days since he had a full night’s rest. Y/N would sometimes spend hours training during the night, until even his intense endurance faltered and his limbs shook. Then he would lie in bed and let his heavy limbs drag him into a fitful sleep. There wasn’t a day that he wasn’t awoken by nightmares, or by memories. Truthfully, he can’t tell the difference all that much anymore. His memories were the stuff of nightmares, but he’s decided to separate them by saying that nightmares are the ones with fictional events and lump the rest into the memories category. Even if he didn’t live them. Not in this lifetime.

Y/N pulled himself out of bed, his body feeling light and energized despite it only having been 5 hours since he pushed himself to the brink of exhaustion. He liked that aspect of this world in particular. The laws of death and life were more fluid. It was a lot more lax than other worlds he’d been in, and he liked the benefits of it, even if it was nauseating to return to this world. Even if it was separated by thousands of years and different lifetimes entirely, he still tried not to think too hard about who he used to be. And how history had forgotten him entirely.

Y/N ran a hand through his hair, messing around with it before it fell back in place. He sighed, not knowing what to do. He seemed lost. Techno was asleep and he didn't wanna awake the man from his slumber.

"What a life.."

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-A/N-

I'm back fuckers. Thanks for being understanding and patient. I love you all!