Caution (Alex Gaskarth) *SLOW UPDATES*

6

Somewhere among my crying fit I fell asleep. I wake and the bus is moving and I hear the faint strumming of a guitar.

"He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes,
Started making his way past two
In the morning, he hasn't been sober for days."

Alex's voice makes my heart beat erratically. My mouth runs dry and my eyes go wide before shutting in awe at his voice. I smile slightly at the familiarity of it.

"Leaning now, into the breeze
Remembering Sunday he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs."

I let myself drift into a memory, I was sitting in my last hour class waiting for the bell to set me free. Now this was a school where music was not greatly appreciated and Alex and I and the boys were majorly looked down on. We didn't care though because we had each other.

As the bell rings Zack rushes to me from his seat in the back if the room.

"Mr. Daniel wants you in the music room...like right now." he says before running away. Me being the naive high school girl that I was totally fell for it. I took off and when I burst into the door I see a rose on the piano with Alex sitting on the bench.

"Sit." he says pointing to the ground in front of him. I laugh and do so.

"I wrote this for you..." Alex says as he starts to play.

"Logan, you're my bestest friend
And I've liked you for a very very very long
Time
Please be my girlfriend
Because I said please!"

I laugh incredibly hard at the amount of adorableness.

"Of course Alex." I respond.

I feel tears again as I get out of my bunk. I won't cry again not tonight. I walk to the door of the back room where Alex is at. He's progressed in the song almost to Juliets verse,

"The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh I can see now
That all of
These clouds are
Following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever
Wherever she may be,"

I can't stop myself I don't realize I started before it's too late.

"I'm not coming back
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up,
I'll be blunt,
now the rain is just washing you out of my hair
and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head"

His voice returns but it sounds weaker now. Yet still so mesmerizing. I sit with back against the door and listen to him finish the song.

"I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home." He finishes. I lay my head against the door.

"That was beautiful," Alex squeaks from the other side. My heart stops at his voice.

"Th-thanks." I respond. I know I should go back to bed but I can't bring myself to move.

"God it's nice to hear you sing again." I blurt. I hear him laugh from the other side of the door.

"We can't keep this up, we have to eventually look at each other. We have a show soon." Alex says. I sigh.

"I know. I just don't know if I'm ready to be any closer to you again. You do know I haven't even technically been with anyone since you. I mean nothing has ever felt as real as we did. So I really don't count any of it." I say.

"I'm happy to hear that." He says.

"Alex, I fell deeply madly in love with you and you shattered me. I can't let that happen again. I have this gut feeling that if we try to be friends history will just repeat itself. I can't, won't, let that happen." I say with tears forming in my eyes.

That was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to say.

"Logan..." he starts. I can hear him begin to cry which then shoves me over the edge and I break into sobs.

"Logan having you so close and not being able to fix my fuck up is killing me. All I'm asking for is a chance. Just let me try!" Alex says through tears. I lay my head back against the door and let a couple sobs go. I'm breaking him just like he broke me, but I've been broken too bad for me to allow myself to care.

"I'm not say never Alex, but I'm saying not now." I stand from the floor and walk back to my bunk where I lay and cry silently.

*ALEXS P.O.V*

I sit stunned. She spoke to me. She sang with me. She sat within a foot of me and I pushed too hard and now we are back where we started.

Her voice still flows through my ears. It brings back the time I first heard her sing, I was walking to her house so we could finish our Government project. I knocked on her door and nobody answered but I hear blink-182 very loudly playing through the house so I knew she was home. Sure as hell was she home and she was singing. I stop dead in my tracks. She hadn't let me hear her at all yet and we had been friends for well...since fourth grade. I stand in the living room and shut the door as She finishes and walks around the corner.

"AH ALEX!" She screams. I laugh and wave.

"How long have you been there?!" she exclaims. I smile.

"Long enough to hear the whole song. Why didn't you tell me you had the voice of a Fucking angel?" I ask. She shakes her head.

"Pft, fuck no." she says.

"I'm going to slap you if you say that again." I say sternly. Shelaughs and shakes her head.

"Sure you will gaskarth, but as for now, we have a government project to do." she says grabbing her laptop and my hand dragging me to her room.

Thinking about moments like that make me feel even worse. I feel as though my heart has literally rotted. I hate myself right now even more then I did when she left.

Wait...

She did say she wasn't saying never.

This time I will fight for her.

And I'm not going to fucking lose.

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