Caution (Alex Gaskarth) *SLOW UPDATES*

4

I lay silently on my bed and stare at the ceiling with tears in my eyes and down my cheeks. 

How am I supposed to do this? Act like he isn't there? What if someone along the tour shows up and wants an interview with him and I? What if we share the same bus? Or... Do I talk to him? Act like nothing happened? Do I try or leave it to him? 

Oh no. I'm not trying I've done that before. If he wants to speak to me it's his job to make it happen. 

I can't sit here and think about this. I have to do it. There is no turning back now but Hadlee and Grant are definately on my shit list as of today. I must have ignored about 20 calls and over 100 messages since I got home. I don't think that number is going to do anything but increase as the night goes on.

*ALEX'S P.O.V*

Why the hell is someone knocking on my door at 2 in the morning can't they see that I'm asleep? Ever since Lisa and I split the nights have been harder to "live" in. Not because she's not here but because she doesn't drag me to all these shitty clubs. Long story short, I come home she's fucking some prick and I beat the shit out of him and get him out and then kick her out. Done and I'm single. 

"What the hell do you dicks want?" I ask angrily. Zack steps in followed by the other two and I look at them with an expectant expression. 

"We saw the support act today." Jack says. Oh...

"Yea? Who is it?" I ask. Rian looks from me to the kitchen. 

"I think we should get some drinks don't you Jack?" He says. Him and Jack rush into the kitchen and I watch confused. Zack stands with an angered expression. 

"They always leave this shit to me." He growls. I wait again for Zack now to explain what the hell is going on.

"Logan is our support act." He says bluntly. 

"Never heard of them." I say. Zack narrows his eyes at me. 

"It's not a them..." He says.

"What?" I ask.

"It's a her. Logan...Harper." He says. My heart stops at the sound of her name. I haven't heard from her since we split. I feel like I'm falling.

"Alex?" Zack asks. His voice sounds distant. A vivid image of her comes into mind. I remember the time that she was laying in my bed with me across from her and we were talking about something incredibly irrelevant and she just shakes her head and laughs at me. Her laugh is the most contagious thing anyone can ever hear. Her smile lights up the room and her eyes are the easiest to get lost in. At least were. I wouldn't know now. 

"I uh...I'm going to go to bed. You guys can stay if you want I guess." I say as I place my hand on the railing and work myself up the stairs. I reach my room and fall onto the bed. 

She hates me. How am I supposed to survive being so close yet so so far away from this girl that I used to imagine growing old with, for 4 fucking months? We have to share a bus too. 

"FUCK!" I scream. I lay looking at the ceiling feeling something form in the bottom of my eyes. 

I haven't cried since...

Since the night Logan left.

*LOGANS P.O.V*

The next morning I go get some starbucks to calm myself. I have a call to make. 

"Hello?" Abby asks. 

"Hey can you come over? We need to talk. Well I need to talk." I say. 

"Absolutly. Give me an hour." She says and hangs up. 

Abby is my best friend. She and I met at one of my more local LA gigs and have been friends ever since. I make sure to grab her some coffee as well and start the route home. 

"DOOR IS NOW OPEN!" Abby yells as she walks in. I laugh and hand her the coffee I bought her.

"Ya such a doll!" She squeels. I laugh as she hugs me. 

"So what's up babes?" She asks walking over to the couch. Abby is the only person I told about Alex and I. 

"So once again, I let Grant and Hadlee pick who I toured with. Only this time I severly regrett that decision." I say. 

"You aren't touring with R5 are you?" She asks with a snarl. 

"If they told me that I would rip their throats out." I say with a laugh. 

"Well then at least you know you aren't touring with the worst band in the world." She says with a smile. 

"No I think most of the band is good." I say taking a drink of my coffee. 

"Well who then?" She asks. 

"They set me to support All Time Low for 4 months." I say looking at her. 

Abby's eyes widen and she almost chokes. 

"They did what?" She says awestruck. I nod.

"Why would Hadlee do that to you? How could she do that to you?" Abby asks. I shrug. 

"I was wondering the same things." I say.

"There isn't anything you can do to get out of it?" She asks. 

"No. I tried calling grant. He said its too late." I say. Abby just shakes her head. 

"I'm so sorry. You can call me anytime you need me alright? When does the tour start?" She asks. 

"Day after tomorrow." I say.

"Well then tonight sounds like a good night for a girls night in." Abby says. "I'm gonna go buy a shit ton of Ben and Jerry's and chips and candy and then we can come back and watch movies." She says. I nod and stand up to follow her.

"But for real Abby. What am I going to do?" I ask with a whine. She sighs.

"There isn't much you can do.You have to keep the time in mind too. It's been almost nine years since you last saw eachother. He has probably matured a lot. I doubt he is going to try and start anything with you and If i'm honest, he probably will avoid talking to you or avoid you like the plague. Logan all you can do is go out there, play for the people and deal with your surroundings." She says.

"I wish it didn't have to be this way. I should never have dated him." I say.

"Now, you wouldn't want that. You know you wouldn't." Abby says.

Yes I would.