Caution (Alex Gaskarth) *SLOW UPDATES*

11

Logans P.O.V

They really have talent. I mean the more I have been with them the more I notice it. It radiates from them. They hold themselves perfectly. They know they have it but they know that others do too. They aren't afraid to admit either. Alex  always gives 110% at  every show no matter what kind of song it is. Fast and up beat he's with it and hype. Slow and emotional, you can feel every damn feeling that song was born from. Jack is Jack and is never not hyped. Zack is just the right type of awkward to bring the band back to earth in the fans minds and Rian just loves what he's doing and sees it for what it is. An amazing opportunity.

"We will see you soon New Jersey!" Jack shouts as they all rush off stage. I turn and begin to follow Rian. 

"Great show," I say patting his shoulder. 

"I know because now I'm all sweaty." He says grabbing me and rubbing his hair all over my face. My scream grabs attention. 

"Fuck you." I say with a cringe. He laughs and grabs a towel once we are back in the dressing room. I take a seat next to Alex. Almost as soon as we sit down I get a text. Why is Alex texting me when he's sitting right there. Seriously.

FROM: ALEX

You were amazing tonight. 

TO: ALEX

Thank you. So did you. You seemed more emotional than usual. It added a lot to the show. 

FROM: ALEX

Yea, thinking does that sometimes.

TO: ALEX

What are you thinking about?

He looks at the message and shakes his head and locks his screen. I say nothing about the matter.

"I smell like boy. Gross." I whine. Everyone laughs. 

"OK I'm going to go get a shower." I grumble. 

"I LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW IT!" Rian yells. 

"Fucker!" I respond. I hear more laughter and I make my way to the bus with a smile. 

Even if it might only be for a couple minutes, I get some alone time. For anyone ever to go on tour, you never realize how amazing being by yourself is until you share a bus with about 15 people you spend everyday with. So when you have the chance to be alone you better fucking take it.

The warm water welcomes me and makes me feel at home. It gives me time to think. I want to know what's going on with Alex. He was ten times more emotional during the slower songs which I haven't seen in such a long time. Nothing makes him that emotional unless it is something bad. Alex has never been good with admitting his internal problems. That's why he started song writing, to get out the emotions in a less 'in your face' way. Maybe he misses Lisa. I mean he just split with her and now to have me back around probably isn't helping. Even though I don't want to admit it I was incredibly jealous of Lisa. She got to take the journey with Alex through most of the biggest moments in his career and be with him for it all. I would kill to be able to do that.

I wash my hair quickly because I know that soon the bus will be full and I need to stop thinking. I step out and wrap the towel around me. Making my way to the bunk area I pull out a fall out boy t-shirt and some red pajama shorts to match. I quickly dress and blow dry my hair before putting it up in a bun. I hear the door to the bus open and close.  

Not paying any mind to it I grab my phone from my bunk and make my way to the lounge area. I see a notification and side open my screen. 

FROM: ALEX

You

I freeze and stare at the screen for a minute. I forget that I have opened the door. I look up and see Alex.

"I'm thinking about you Logan. I miss you. I haven't stopped thinking about you. I don't know why I think about you half the time. You are always there. I think about how your smile outshines every other goddamn smile I have ever seen, and how your laugh is the most perfect thing anyone can every have the privilege of hearing." He starts.

"What about Lisa. You loved her. I bet her laugh was amazing too and that her smile was better." I say.

"No. Don't even try to compare yourself to her. I love your eyes they make everyone melt. I love how you can act like one tough bitch but in reality you have one of the softest hearts anyone has ever seen. It shatters me every day when I think back to what I did to you. I wish that I could undo all of it but I can't. Which is why it makes no sense for you to push me away because you think you are going to ruin me. " He says. I look to the floor.

"Who told you that?" I ask. He shakes his head and walks to me. 

"That doesn't matter. You can't ruin something that doesn't allow you to ruin it. I won't let you ruin me. I won't have to keep you from ruining me. You could never do that." He says. I keep my eyes trained to the spot on the floor. 

"Look at me." He says. I don't respond so he takes my face and gently moves it to make eye contact. 

"The only thing that could ruin me, is you thinking that you will and never giving us another chance." He says. I take a step back. 

"Alex. I don't know. I-" My mind begins to race. There are so many outcomes to this scenario. 

"Logan, let me try something and if it doesn't work then I will drop it for good, I promise." He says looking me directly in the eye. I love his eyes.

"What?" I ask. 

"You have to trust me. I know that is hard for you to do but please, you have to." He says. 

"I trust you Alex." I say. 

"Good." He responds. He takes a step closer to me and takes my face in his hands. My hands fly to his hands as soon as I realize what he is doing it's too late. His lips attach to mine. 

No, I shouldn't do this but I can't. I can't deny anything anymore. Even with the short time I have been around him it has heightened everything and brought everything back. I never lost him. I always had him. 

I kiss him back.

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