Caution (Alex Gaskarth) *SLOW UPDATES*

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I lay in my bunk listening to the wheels turn beneath me. I find some comfort in it. My thoughts running wild over the past events of today. I hear two of the guys in the back playing some video game and i know one is asleep. I hear him snoring. Probably Zack. I peak out of my bunk and look above me. A hand falls over the side and a foot dangels on the opposite end. Definitely Zack. I venture futher down the hall. Pressing my ear to the door i find that Jack and Rian are in the back playing some war game leaving the only one missing, to be Alex. I walk back to my bunk and pull out a blanket to wrap around myself. The purple fabric is soft on my skin and a helps a great deal with the chill of the bus. I slude on my slipper boots and walk into the front lounge. Alex sits on the love seat near the kitchenette. I slide the door shut and he looks up from his phone. I smile lightly before walking over and taking a seat next to him.

"Cant sleep?" He asks softly.

"Nope." i say with a small sigh. Alex sits in plaid pair of pajama pants and a white 'New Found Glory' t-shirt. His hair is messy from either the shower he took or the sweat left from the show. He smells amazing so i'm guessing a shower. I nod slightly.

"I can go, if you want-" He starts

"No. No alex just stay. Please." I say. I feel the familiar lump in my throat but i refise to cry anymore than i already have today. I swallow the lump and take a deep breath as he sits back down.

"Then say something. I'm not going to sit this close to you and feel even further than i already am." He says weakly. The lumps back...fuck.

"I don't know what to say Alex." I utter looking across the bus to the window on the other side. "When i found out that i was put on this tour i freaked out. I don't know exactly why but i did. I dont know wether it was because i was going to be around you, which was what i thought at first, or wether it was going to be having you so close to me and be so far away." I say taking a glance down to the floor.

"I'm not going to lie i freaked out to. Me more so for the second reason." Alex says.

"There is not really any way to get around this." I say with a slight laugh. Alex nods.

"Look Logan i wish that we could just start over. Right here. Right now but we cant do that until i say that im sorry. I didnt even attempt to keep our friendship at the least." He says. I shake my head.

"Being left behind is somethig you get used to. You also get over it and move on. I had things to take my mind off of it." I say trying to take some guilt off of him.

"Being found again is possible, so is caring and trusting. Logan dont even try to take any of the blame for this." He says taking a hold of my shoulder. I look into his eyes.

"This was my fuck up. NOT yours. It was my fault." He says. "Now dont tell me its ok because its not."

"Fine then. I for give you. That better?" I ask. His laughter brings a smile to my lips.

"Yes, better. Logan you were my everything and i just threw you away. I know that you dont have any thought in your mind of giving me another chance at anything-" He starts.

"Thats not true. Im willing to be friends with you now. I honestly want that more than anything. Being anything more...thats gonna take some work. Its not even crossing my mind right now, But its not completely out the window." I say looking at him.

"Logan," Alex says.

"Alex, i feel the same way i did when i left. What we had was too valuble to throw away completely. Put it on a top shelf for awhile? Wasnt prefferable at the time but it happened." I say.

"That i understand and i also understand that I cant change it now. But let me try to make it up to you please? Let me gain back what I pushed away." He says looking at me intently.

"I cant give you permission or ban you from doing that Alex. Thats all up to you!" I say. He smiles.

"It was also up to you to shut me out for this whole tour but i see that you wont do that." He says with a smile. I laugh a little and shake my head.

"No, definaty not." I say.

"Thank you." He says. I shrug.

"Its nothing Gaskarth." I say. His face lights up and he laughs.

"Well i think im going to try to sleep now. How about you?" He asks standing to his feet. I nod and follow him back to the bunk room where we exchange goodnights and crawl into our bunks. Back in the situation i was before i left the bunk i stare at the top of my alcove with a smile this time.

Random tidbit but i think im the one who got him that "New Found Glory" t-shirt...

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