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Chapter 5

"Amethyst what's wrong? Are you okay?" Agar asks rushing to my side. Covering my face I cry harder and nod my head "yes" though we both know I'm not. Agar immediately holds me in a loving embrace and rocks us back and forth.

We stay like that, me crying and him holding me, for a good 30 minutes before he lets go and wipes my tears away whispering, "What's all this about?"

Immediately my mind starts racing, 'Do I tell him or do I just tell him not to worry about it?' I don't want him to yell, but I know he'll get frustrated either way so I go with the second option, the less he knows the less he'll have to worry about. "It's nothing I swear don't worry about me." I rush my words getting up from the couch, trying to be as convincing as possible.

Just as I start taking a step away from the couch I feel his hand grasp my upper arm, I turn to face his upset yet worried eyes silently telling me to sit back down, "What?"

All I get in reply is "Sit."

Sighing I sit down and look at him waiting for further instruction. "You mean to say I just held you while you were crying for 30 minutes and nothings wrong?" Agar asks as calmly as possible. I simply reply "Yeah, absolutely nothing."

"Absolutely nothing my ass! Listen, I don't care if we have to sit here all night, you WILL tell me what the hell is wrong. Not to mention you still have to tell me about that damn dream." He says, anger and frustration dripping from every word.

Well, here goes nothing. "Fine" Taking a deep breath I try calm myself. "I guess I'll start with the dream?"

"That sounds like a great place to start." He sternly replies.

"Alright, well in the dream I was in an ally and one of the men in black suits backed me up against a wall. He told me to do what he said and that he didn't want to hurt me. He was drunk and I just, I cried out for you but you never came to help me and I knew he was stronger then me and I was so scarred." By now I was sobbing and Agar was just starting at me blankly. Sniffling I continue "I was thinking about how great it would be to be a bird a deer or even a squirrel, they're so wild and care free."

Suddenly Agar cuts me off, "What so what I've been providing for us isn't enough? I work my ass off for us." he says through his teeth.

Oh gosh, here we go, "Yes, it's perfect Agar! Let me finish."

"Fine"

"They're so worry free. Then I was thinking about Mom and Dad, I mean their is no way they were just taken. it couldn't have been that simple."

I'm once again cut off by my an angry Agar, "So you think I was lying to you now? You've got to be fucking kidding me."

"LET ME FINISH JACKASS!" I yell over him. I look back at my dumbfounded brother and take his silence as a confirmation to continue.

"I mean mom and dad were so, I don't know, they were just amazing at protecting themselves as well as us. Then I started wondering if you ever thought about them. I came to the conclusion that you moved passed it because you're so strong. Then you walked in on me crying. I'm pathetic I know."

Once I'm finished it starts to feel like the room is closing in on me, suddenly it starts getting harder to breath. I try standing up to get some fresh air but I can't seem to move. I shoot my arms out in attempt to stop everything from closing in, gabbing at my chest gasping for air I glance up and choke out, "Can't. Breath." Agar shoots up from the couch knowing what's happening and takes off for the bathroom.

I haven't had an anxiety attack in what seems like ages. I pull my knees up to my chest and rest my head on my knees feeling the darkness starting to take over just when I hear Agar yell "Fuck!" I hear his thunderous steps rushing toward me. Forcing my eyes to open I see him with an empty prescription bottle eyes as wide as a deer in headlights. The darken is starting to feel inviting and Agar must notice me drifting off as I faintly hear "No no no no no, Stay with me Am..." Then everything went black.

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Hey everyone, sorry it took forever for me to update. I've been really busy with school and finding a college and all that great stuff. anyway, just thought I'd add a dramatic chapter! Vote. Comment. Share maybe. :)