The Wish//Ed Sheeran

Chapter 10

Hello, I'm dedicating the chapter to _Give_Me_Ed_ because she dedicated a chapter to me, her books are freaging bloody amazing (note I love Finding My Forever) and also said that she can't wait an update on this book. So yeah, thanks. :)

"So, do you think you're ready for this?" He asked me and I looked at the stage one more time. They were screaming rapidly and started panicking. I couldn't do it.

"Ed, I can't, I'm so scared. What if I do a chord wrong and then make you be on the news and then poof, your career's done." I said and he did what I least expected him to do. He laughed. "What?" I asked him. "Poof." He said mimicking my voice ( Which was actually his).

"It's actually your voice so you can't laugh at yourself." I said and went to the stage. "Umm, hello." I said and heard my (Ed's) voice. I still haven't got used to hearing myself. 

"My name is Ed Sheeran and... my job is to e-entertain you and your job is to be entertained." I said and the crowd cheered.

I stared strumming The A Team and closed my eyes. I could hear my (Ed's) voice through the speakers and felt weird.

I felt like he was singing to me and that I wasn't even singing, like I was staring at him and then... I sung with full passion. I tried to feel like Ed feels on stage and felt proud. I didn't expect this.

After The A Team I played some of his new, easy songs like Runaway, One and Tenerife Sea and some others, and then the show was over. I was seaty and I didn't even notice two hours have passed.

I felt bloody amazing and that's what Ed feels on stage. The fans were singing along with me and held their open phones to make light on the soft songs, it was wonderful.

When I went backstage I looked at Ed. He was sitting down, seeming sad and I stopped smiling once I saw him.

"Ed, are you ok?" I asked him. "Yeah, just fine." He said and then I noticed why was he sad.

"You miss performing, don't you?" I asked him. And then, he hugged me and started crying. "I want to see my fans and perform again, I miss it so much." He said and I felt sad for him.

The way you feel sad when you lose your remembering item that a person you love gave it to you. When that person died and I know this feeling.

It was a cold Winter night in Halifax. I was born there and lived there my whole life, and I still do. I'm here. Ed was born there but he later moved to Suffolk and lived there.

On that night I returned home after being mocked by my best friend. I still remember her words. They were so down for me and they honestly made me feel like shit. "STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM!!! HIS MUSIC IS A PIECE OF SHIT AND HE'S UGLY!!! I PREFER ONE DIRECTION!!! THEY'RE SOOO HOTTER THAN THAT GINGER!!!!" She screamed at me. I felt like I was gonna die at that moment, but I felt a tear slid down my cheek and I started running away, crying.

She mocked my idol and it was like mocking me because I wanted to be like him. He was 20 at that time. New to this career but I knew his songs and I honestly loved all of them.

When I went home, I went straight into my room and saw a note on the bed. It was a bright yellow small note. That's Dad's favourite color, weird. I grabbed and started reading it.

My baby,
I'm sorry I left this life and I'm sorry I can't tell you why. I know this hurts you but I'm sorry. I can't do anything right. My love to you is strong and will be until the end.
Love,
Dad

When I read it, I started crying and then my Mum ran in to tell me, but she noticed the note on my hand and hugged me.

I felt dissapointed for him leaving him. Why did he do this?

That's how I lost my Father. I've kept that note for years but it's gone and I don't think I'll ever take it back, 'cause he got it.

The monster that ruined my life, the monster that tried to rape me behind my Mother's back but I escaped, the monster that burned my remaining note from Dad, the monster that is most likely to have killed him

Damon