The Wish//Ed Sheeran

Chapter 19

Heyyyy ;) I'm updating. I feel guilty for not updating for you guys because I'd feel horrible if I had to wait so much time for a new chapter of Paper Towns. That sounded selfish because I made my book sound as good as Paper Towns but it's not because I just finished Paper Towns and IT'S AMAZING. John Green is my favourite author EVERRRR...

"What?" I asked him, dumbfounded.

"I said," He started, "Will you be my girlfriend?"

That struck me. He's going way too fast and maybe I don't want to go fast and because he wants to, maybe... I don't want him. It's like he's asking me to eat ice-cream before breakfast but I don't want that because at first it's pleasurable but then my stomach hurts. It's a perfect example.

"Ed, I can't do that." I told him, getting up from the bed.

"What- Why?" He asked me, his voice tearing while he got up.

"Because that's too fast and- and you broke up with your girlfriend and I can't even imagine her reaction. She loved you and you go break up for her for no reason?" I was going to say something else but Ed cut me off.

"It wasn't for no reason it was for you." He said, seemig desperate as his face started getting red. "And you wanna know her reaction? Well; she slapped me. Then she called me a piece of shit and then she said I was cheating on her! But nothing was right!" He screamed.

"Oh she IS right, because you know what? You were cheating on her, and with me to be more specific and you are a piece of shit! You want all the girlfriends you can and the reason you're getting broken up by girls is not a phenomenon that comes out of nowhere you know! It's because of who you are!"

A tear fell from his face, and at that moment I thought he was gonna break down and cry but instead his anger grew.

"I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR OPINION ABOUT ME BECAUSE YOU CAN'T BE ME, YOUR ROOTS ARE TOO DAMAGED AND I WISH I COULD JUST THROW MY MEMORY WITH YOU INTO A HOLE SO THE BEAUTIFUL UNCUT HAIR OF GRAVES WOULD GROW AND THEN THOSE MEMORIES WOULD BE LOST THERE! JUST GRASS AMONG ALL MEMORIES BEING THERE, FORGOTTEN!"

I felt small at that, partly because he knows a lot of 'Song Of Myself' references, and partly because he called me damaged and he doesn't know what I've been through. I might have been happy with my friends but sometimes I did cry myself to sleep because I was thinking about everything about this world.

A tear fell from my eye and Ed didn't ease from his anger.

"I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR FUCKING BULLSHIT! JUST BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW TO ACT DOESN'T MEAN I WILL FORGIVE YOU!" He opened the door furiously and ran out shutting it so hard that I felt the floor beneath me tremble.

Another tear fell from my eye and I couldn't help but fall on my bed sheets. I couldn't help but cry more.

His aroma was still lying beneath me.

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Woohoo! How was that!?! A lot of Paper Towns references but it's mah babeh!

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