F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

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I ran away from his place and reached my house. I entered my room and locked the door from inside. I started weeping and repenting at the same time for my misdeeds which I deed last night.

I started thinking in my teary eyes.

I felt myself nothing lesser than a selfish giant. I'm such an idiotic creature who imagined Mahir as Rahul and fucked him. I ruined an innocent boy's life. I fucked my best friend... I can't take this.

I never loved him as my boyfriend. I felt for him nothing more than that of a best friend. Then, why the hell I had shown such a stupidity????!!!!!!!

Suddenly I heard some knocking sounds which is coming from my door.

"Bela, darwaza kyu band kar diye ho?"
said my mother.

I didn't responded her.

"Bela, you lost your virginity..." , my heart interrupted.

"Virginity, my foot!!!!..." I responded.

Only the thing which is killing me is, I ruined an innocent agent's life. A boy who's an well wisher to me. I ruined his life. How can I be so selfish for my own pleasure?

I did everything in order to get self satisfaction that I'm getting my beloved Rahul🥺...

Oh sorry, correction: my beloved ex boyfriend, Rahul.

But I ruined an innocent creature's life, who's not Rahul and didn't even ruined my life like Rahul. He just wanted my happiness, he's no one other than my well wisher. He's my best friend.

Yes! He's my best friend. My best friendship is secondary, but the primary fact is, even if everyone in this world tries to harm me and ruin my life and destroy my happiness, then he's the only person in this whole world other than my parents, who always wishes for my happiness, indeed he's my well wisher.

And who am I??
A cheater... Yes yes yes!!! I'm a cheater. I cheated him. I played with him for my own pleasure. I fucked him for my own satisfaction. Last but not the least, that one night stand is enough for fucking his whole life. This will kill him each and every seconds emotionally.

The reason behind all this shit is, me myself one and only piece.

Yes I, I'm the one who's responsible for all this shitty things. Thus, I should be punished. Such a mistake of mine can never be forgiven by anyone for the whole life ever.
Even if Mahir forgives me after all this, still I can't forgive myself. That's what I really can't 🙏🏻🙏🏻

Thus, the only punishment which is applicable for me, for my such a severe mistake is, I should end my life here.

Thus, I took a number of sleeping pills.

Then, I took the knife from my table, which was kept with butter last evening in my room, for my snacks purpose.

Then, slowly I started hurting myself very badly with that night as I was cutting my left hand with my right. Bloods oozed out.

At the mean time, the door of my room is broken, and I noticed Mahir entered my room along with my mother.

He tried to stop me with all his requests. But, unfortunately, it was too late.

He said a number of emotional stuffs. But, the sleeping pills started working so I was only able to see him, that too in a hazy state and I was able to hear his voice hardly, but I didn't understood or remembered a single word which he said.

Then automatically my eyes closed and everything became dark.

Flashback ends.

Now slowly slowly Bela is able to open her eyes.

At first, she viewed some hazy sights and then she was able to visualise the blue ceiling of the hospital.

"Doctor, the patient has opened her eyes", said the nurse.

"Then she don't need to be in ICU anymore. Transfer her to general bed", the doctor replied.

Then, the nurse transferred Bela to the general bed.

As soon as Mahir got this good news, he became very happy. He thanked Lord Shiva for listening to his constant prayers.

To be continued...