Every Thing We Can't Have

when will I ever learn?

v.

When the shooting ended, Jihyo was so confused why Jongkook did not talk to her after the guest had been paired up with each other. He was being grumpy all day and constantly failed all challenges that members had to discreetly ask when cameras weren't directed to them if he was doing well, or if he felt something injured him, whatsoever.

He kept saying he's good and he wasn't just in the mood but the members felt her behavior was kind of offish.

Haha sidled to Jihyo's place who was distraught as to why Jongkook seem so cold to her.

"Yah, maybe you should talk to him." Haha said.

Jihyo's flicked a brow up and scrunched her face. "What did I do oppa? Why would I apologize to something I did not remember commiting!"

"Aniya! I am not saying you should apologize. Maybe he could use a talk since you were often going out."

"But he's not talking to me ever since the guests came oppa. I'm not sure if it was caught on tape but I asked him once about the game but instead of answering me, he shrugged his shoulder and left. Now tell me why I do not want to get tangled into his strings."

Haha gave a bottle of water to Jihyo cause he could weirdly see her nose flaring out of anger. Everyone in the set knew how short-tempered Song Jihyo is.

"Just talk to him Jihyo ya. It's the best thing to do. Ask him why he was suddenly being too sour even the PD's notice how distorted his face was in every angle."

"Is that my problem?"

Haha closed his eyes and a grin took up his lips, in a fleet. "Jinja! Song Jihyo and her temper. Thank heavens, I did not pursue my feeling with you otherwise I'll be a battered husband."

Jihyo bursted into a loud laugh. "Seriously oppa, I would not  have accepted your proposal."

"Don't deny it, you like me then."

"Gae-sae-ggi!" Jihyo cursed and it was now Haha's turn to laugh like he was at home, stuffing some air while still processing the word.

[ 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬: 𝑠𝑜𝑛 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑏𝑖𝑡𝑐ℎ! ]

When HAHA recovered from the sudden attack, he said.  "Yoksi, Song Jihyo." He stood and before leaving, he shuffled her messy hair out from the strenuous challenge they did. "Take my words, please talk to him."

[ 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬: 𝐴𝑠 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑆𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝐽𝑖ℎ𝑦𝑜. ]

Song Jihyo sat in silence while contemplating about what Haha said to her. She wasn't the type of person to fix a cold war without the knowledge how she contributed to the argument. But she did it anyway.

So when it was time to go home, she secretly followed Jongkook using her manager's car. Where was his manager? She let him ride the public bus in her way, like kicking him to get on the vehicle. Typical Song Jihyo's manner.

She'd been following Jongkook for half an hour now without knowing where it would lead her. She was still clueless that he already figured out who's in charge of the steering wheel, driving the car that's trailing him.

When Jihyo noticed that the car was slower than before, she came to a conclusion that her plan did not work, resorting to Plan B, which was to just confront him. Jihyo stopped the car and so Jongkook. They were in the middle of a mini bridge far from houses and people, in short, a safe place to talk without dispatch lurking around or maybe not.

"Really Song Jihyo? Did you have to scare me like that? I thought I was being hunt." he said in distaste.

"It's your fault oppa. You did not talk to me during the whole shoot except in the morning. What is your problem anyway? We've been doing great these past few weeks. After Gary oppa left, you were there to catch me. Kwangsoo was there too but you did most of the lifting! So why all of a sudden? Tell me! I believe I deserve to know the root of this resentment." she sputtered not knowing why she felt really weird and betrayed inside. One wrong move and she would be in tears.

I do not want to be used Jihyo ya. I also want you to see me as a man who will do everything to make you happy, not a friend who is just there to comfort you in your downfall. - His thought said all his feelings but he chose not to disclose it for now.

"Why are you so sensitive?"

Song Jihyo's temper rised up to the extent. "Shibal!! Oh please don't make me curse anymore."

[ 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬: 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢! ]

"I came clean oppa. You are mad at me for a reason I don't know when and where I did/said."

Jihyo couldn't hold it anymore and like a dam collapsing, her tears violently cascaded.

"Yah, Song Jihyo! wae ur-eo?"

[ 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬: 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔? ]

His heart melt at what's in front of him. A crying Song Jihyo, so pure and naive. Wiping her tears using the hem of her baggy shirt.

I thought no one looks good while crying. Jongkook mumbled inside his head while running to her pitiful state. He hugged her so tight, her bones could crush any moment.

"Aren't you mad at me?" Jihyo slurred as heavy sobs came out of her.

"Why would I be mad at you. I'm really not in the mood Jihyo ya. Sshhhh, hajima. Everybody would think I'm bad, making a lady cry. Now calm down."

Jihyo reciprocated the hug even tigther. After all the issues and controversy circling around like booby traps even in her dreams, a hug was enough remedy. She was sad with Gary's departure and fans messaging her everyday forcing her to quit too. She was tired and lost, her eyes could say it all and only Jongkook felt the pain as he was the only person who looked at her that way.

"But why you didn't talk to me?"

Cause Park Seojun chose you when I could have been in his place. I'm fucking jealous.

Jongkook smiled at his foolishness."My back was in pain, I could not stand talking to people." he said instead of saying what his mind wanted to.

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