Swords And Crowns

Depression

A/N hey my lovely's sorry to interrupt your reading but I just wanted to tell you that I am making this chapter while being really tired so sorry if it really sucks. Also I don't remember what happened in the past chapters so this should be a great chapter. Any who happy reading.

*finns pov*
Me and Y/N have been doing the same routine  for the past couple of weeks. Get up,train,watch TV,sleep repeat. She had only had a few nightmares but they were very mild. I haven't told her that I loved her while we both are awake and able to hear/remember and I really want to. We were doing pretty good. Yesterday day my dad came up to me and told me that we were going to war with some country. I would just have to fight for a few months with my men which meant I had to leave my princess.
"But dad what about my men who are still in training? Who will train them?" I asked trying to make up an excuse to make it so I could go.
"Oh I thought about that garmen will be taking over for as long as you are gone. You have nothing to worry about he trained the men in covera and is a very hard trainer."
Shit
I didn't think of him

Me and Y/N only saw him 5 times in the past few weeks. Maybe because everyone did there own things and we hid out a lot.

"Oh ok.when do we leave?" Ugh I don't want to leave her.
"2 days till you and your trained troops leave."
"Ok dad I am gonna go to my room to rest. Call me for dinner."
"Ok son have fun."

I walked into my room and found my sleeping princess on my bed. We take turns on who's rooms we sleep in. It was my turn this week. I walked over and sat down next to her. I started playing with her hair and whispering cute soft words into her ear. She was laying in her stomach at an angle with her head to the right side. She shifted a little and a small smile appeared on her face. She was so cute. I didn't tell her about the war because I didn't want her to worry. She probably wanted to come with me. I couldn't let her come it was to dangerous and if anything even later a finger on her I would never forgive myself for letting her come so I didn't let her come.

The past few days have been rough I spent them training and I had everyone not mention the war around Y/N do that she wouldn't ask to come. It was the day I was supposed to leave. The sun hadn't come up yet but I new that it was time to go so I grabbed my stuff and walked over to Y/N. She was still sleeping and it was adorable. I planted a kiss on her forehead and whispered and quick good bye in her ear.
"Good bye princess. I hope to see you soon. I love you so much."
Then I got up and left. I went outside where I was met by many men at least 3,000 of them. The covera guards agreed to help too which brought out number up more. I went and joined the crowed. When we saw sight of the sun we stated to move. The journey was gonna be long and hard. I was already missing 2 things. Y/N and her warm bed. The smell was very warm and cozy but was nice for spring with the hint of flowers. She had told me about how it used to be her moms room and how the drawings are her moms too she also shared the meanings behind some. When she was passionate about something she got this damn smile on her face that made me smile. Ughhhhh I was gonna miss her.

*Y/N POV*
I awoke to an empty bed. where was Finn? He would normally be right next to me when I woke up. I got out of bed and checked the bathroom.
Empty
Then I looked around the room to see if he somehow fell on the floor in his sleep....again (don't ask)
Nope
I decided to get ready and down walk to the kitchen to get some food.
Maybe he was there?

When I got there I found Diana and Harry eating food in deep conversation. Diana looked stressed. I went into the kitchen part of the dinning room and still no Finn.
Where was he?
I grabbed a apple which if Finn was here I'd get an lecture about how I am not eating enough for breakfast. This was coming from the boy who starved me for days.
I went and sat with Diana and Harry. When they saw me they stopped talking and quickly changed the subject.
"Hey sweetheart! How are you?"
Diana said trying to sound happy
"Hey good morning. I am alright I guess. Do you happen to know where Finn is? I couldn't find him in our- i mean anywhere this morning." I almost slipped. Oops.
I wondered what was bugging Diana and where Finn was.
"Oh he didn't tell you? He went off to war this morning he'll be gone for a few months."
That bastard didn't tell me. He just left. I don't know why but I need to know what is happening at all times to know that I am ok. New info scares me because I didn't get time to think it over.
"Who will take over training then?" I asked trying to act as if I didn't care
"Garmen will and don't worry about your friends Freddie and Caleb they are still here for normal training. So is the rest of the trainees"
Ok well at least my friends are still here here. Life will be the same way it was before I ever met Finn. Just now I have friends. I haven't spent much time with garmen since I have been hanging out with the guys.
"Ok sounds ok. Do you know what time garmen will be starting today?"
"You have the day off due to the day we go to war is a day of peace and rest."
"Oh ok. Is there anything else I should know?" I asked trying to figure out what's new
"Nope I think that is it."
I got up and took my apple with me. As I approached the door before I heard Diana call
"Oh and Y/N if your gonna hide a relationship try a little harder. We figured it out a while ago." I froze