Swords And Crowns

Depression part 2

(A/N hey my lovely's this is gonna be a short chapter bc I have to at least attempt to sleep. My neighbors are having a house party and it is 1:30 AM as I am writing this author note meaning it is only gonna get later. I am really tired and have already fallen asleep twice in the past half hour. I slept bad last night so I am really tired. This chapter I just a quick filler I just thought that I should at least post this. My neighbors are playing pony rn and sadly I can't see the show bc my window is angled wrong. (Fuck off I am a lonely depressed bitch I can have my fun). Sorry if this sucks any who happy reading,

*Y/N's POV*
He's dead

Finn the man I loved

I never actually told him I loved him while we were both awake. I wish I did tell him. I was finally happy and then the world just had to shit on me again. I had my fun and now I have to get back to my world of pure pain. The feeling of being alone all over again was stating to appear again. I excused myself and ran into my room closing the door. I ran my hands through my hair and screamed I began to sob but without the tears. I stated throwing things. Then I through myself onto the bed and hugged my willow. Snot falling down my face. I feel asleep turning my breakdown which was good so I didn't do anything stupid.
(The next morning)
I awake to a awful headache and I knew I was covered in filth so I got off the bed to take a shower. I stepped over the broken glass,scattered books and items,pillows,and other stuff that trashed my room.

I undressed and hopped in the shower.

I didn't do anything.

I just stood there

Numbness took over me

I couldn't feel anything

I stood there till my feet turned red and the water grew cold. I just sat down crossing my legs Indian style in the shower. I stayed in there until I heard a knock at the door.
"Y/N? Sweetheart? I know your are upset because you and Finn became friends but please come join us in the kitchen when your re done with your shower. Just know that it will get better. It has to" Diana said muttering the last part before she left not waiting for a response.

I got dressed then went down to the kitchen and sat down. I was met by Harry,Diana,Garmen,and many other guards theta were not stationed anywhere right now due to them being trainees. Freddie and Caleb came in behind me. Caleb planting a kiss on my forehead and Freddie giving me a side hug. Diana opened her mouth about to stay this meeting but nothing came out. Harry snaked his arm around her waist and planted a soft kiss on her head. She took a deep breath in trying again but failed. Harry opened his month to speak for his wife.
"We are going to have a small final goodbye ceremony for Finn. You all will make speeches which you'll recite on the day that me and Diana choose. We will give you more details when we decide but for now just know what is expected of you. You may all leave."  We left the kitchen and Caleb and Freddie followed behind me. I tried walking faster to avoid them but they sped up too. Caleb throwing me over his shoulder. I was to tired to stop him. For some reason I was tried. I spelt ok last night. Well as good as anyone in my position could sleep. Freddie opened finns door and Caleb placed me on his bed. I smelled the pillow and my eyes started to close. I fell asleep.

A/N hey my lovely's like I said sorry for the short chapter. I hope it was ok tho. Please comment and tell me your thoughts. I should update on Friday night. I have to do a full Spanish class tomorrow because it is due and I procrastinated. It is either that or yard work. Sounds fun right. Any who Gn everyone. Eat/drink if you haven't already. I love you so much and please keep going. You made it this far so turn back or give up now. You got this! Have a great day or night. Byeeeee.

(Ps the music finally stopped due to it being 2 AM.)