Swords And Crowns

The final good bye

( hey my lovely's I swear I am gonna cry while writing this meaning It's ok to cry while reading this. Any who happy reading)

*Y/N pov*
I awoke in his room in between Freddie and Caleb on Finns bed. I smelled the blanket,his smell was slightly wearing off. I got sad and tried to push back the flood gates that had opened in my eyes. I sniffed on accident and I heard a deep grown.

"Ughhhh!" The noice came from my left side and a large arm wrapped around my waist.

I looked over it was Caleb

"Shhh it's ok let it out." He whispered

The tears poured down my face and I started to sob. I miss him. I really do.

I felt another person behind me

"It's ok babes. We miss him too but we will never be able to feel the pain you must have." He sat up and held me.

Both men held onto me and whispered sweet nothings in my ears. I passed out again in my puddle of tears. When I awoke it was to the guys they had gotten up from the bed.

"Where are you guys going?"

"We have to go to training." Freddie said
"Hold on I'll come with you" I attempted to get out of bed but Caleb pushed me back down

"Oh no you don't. Diana wants you to stay in here till 3 then you have to meet her." Caleb said holding me down.

"Ughhhh fine" I stopped squirming and gave in.

"Good now if you excuse us we don't want to be late. Garmen is scary. I don't know how you put up with him since you were little." Freddie said half feeling bad for me.

"Yeah it was tough. Bye guys!"

They left and I was alone again. It is so rough when I am alone. It makes the world seem so depressing.

I find his remote and turn in the tv. It still has the originals paused. I grab his pillow and hold it really tight stuffing my face in it and crying. I can't do this anymore. I hurt so bad.

I look at the clock and it is 2:30 so I get up get dressed. When I looked in the mirror I was a mess. I splashed some cold water in my face and took deep breaths. I looked at my self again and did my little hype up pep talk. Then I head down to Diana's office. When I reach the door I knock and hear a soft come in come from Diana's beautiful voice. I twist the handle and walk in.
"Oh Y/N honey I am glad you could come talk to me. Please sit sit." She said motioning to a chair.

I take a seat and look down at my hands while playing with my fingers.
"Sweet heart your not in trouble I just wanted to talk to you about you and Finn. I know that you to had a thing with each other." My eyes shot up at her. I must have looked like a deer in the head lights because I was frozen.

"H-how did you know?"

"Oh please a mother knows all. Plus you have been sleeping in his room for the past year and a half." She waved me off

"Oh ok."

"Sweetheart I know it hurts but it will get better." A tear rolls down our cheeks. I quickly rub it away and hope she didn't see it.

"It's ok to cry sweetheart I don't judge." She pushed me a tissue box after plucking one out for herself.

I grabbed one and dabbed away the next few tears. Diana got up and gave me a hug which lasted a while. We stood there in silence until she pulled away and sat back down. We finished up the meeting and talked about the plans.

*Day of the final goodbye*
(Imma cry)
I was awoken by Freddie and Caleb waking me and Diana coming over to me holding up a beautiful black dress. I had no reason to get up today I was to depressed and tired to get up. My body was numb and nothing hurt besides my heart. I sat up and walked over to the bathroom grabbing the dress. I put it on and grabbed my brush. I walked back over to my bed and handed the brush to Caleb and he started to brush my hair. He was so gentle. Meanwhile Freddie started to do my makeup he said and I quote 'you look like death it's self so I need to figure out how to hide this-' he gestured to me 'without making you a cake face'. Both Diana and Caleb start dying of laughter and I soon join them. When we sober up we remember what happens today and we go back to being sad. After Diana finished the last touches on my dress we were out the door.

*Y/N speech*
I stand up and walk to the front of the crowd.
"Ahm I met Finn only a little bit over a year and a half ago and since I met him I know that he really cared about all of you guys. He was very talented and was good at his work. He would have made a great king. Let his courage and power carry with all of us everyday and lay us remember him as the warrior he was." My eyes were full of tears and my breathing was getting faster.
"Here here!" Freddie screamed
The crowd cheered and I stepped down and I walked down the path between people. Diana brushed my hand and mouth 'thank you' and faked a smile. I returned it and walked back to my chair. I watched as more people went up to make their speeches. I looked at the picture of Finn and tomb stone. There was no body since no one knew which was his so we just put picture of him up and made a stone. The funeral took place in a beautiful place by a lake surrounded by trees and there was a pier. We stood by the water were there was trees set up. Damn I missed him. My eyes were begging for the tears to come out but I stopped them. Caleb and Freddie grabbed my hands. Caleb pulled a flask out of his suit pocket. As soon as the liquid touched my tough I knew that it was strong enough to make the pain numb. My eyes closed as all the memories of Finn flooded my head from the time he stabbed me,to our shower scene, to the picnic,to the last I love you he said to me. My memories were interrupted by Diana.

"Thank you all for coming. Finn would have loved all of your speeches. Have a safe trip back and thanks again." Everyone got up and left. I was driving with Harry,Diana,Caleb,Freddie and 2 guards. This meant I would have to wait a little so I walked down to the end of the pier and and took my shoes off sticking my feet in, I resumed the memories good and bad. I was sad but again I couldn't cry it was like my tears were dry. I heard foot steps towards me.
"Hey y/n are you ok?" Freddie asked

"Yeah just tired." I didn't look at him I just kept looking at the sunset.

I do t remember what happened after this all I know is I woke up Finns room.

A/N hey my lovely's sorry if this chapter sucked and that I didn't update last night I fell asleep. I will post tomorrow. Happy Mother's Day guys. Ps no Caleb doesn't have a crush on Y/N. Keep going! You got this! Eat/drink if you haven't already, Ily so much and pls share. Have a great day/night. I didn't read though any of this Schaefer so so if it is a mess. Gn/Gm