Dead In The Mist

Part One: Don't Leave Me

Troye Sivan as Elijah ^

Elijah

It was dark. So dark that I couldn't even see myself. I didn't like this darkness. It felt wrong. All of this felt wrong, like I shouldn't be here in the first place. I can feel something under my bare feet, it was wet and sticky. Almost like honey, sticking to my skin as I walked around. I kept on walking until I saw faint light in the distance. It was a golden color, glowing in the darkness like fire in the night.

The light looked inviting for some reason so I walked towards it, no longer scared by the suffocating blackness around me. I knew I was safe in the light, I can feel it pulling me. As I stepped closer to the light, I noticed it was in the shape of a man. A person I knew all too well. His warmth and security was welcoming, all I wanted to do now was get even closer to him until there was no distance left. I wanted to touch him, feel his smooth skin on mine. Feel the beat of his heart in rhythm with my own.

I was only a few feet away from him, he was facing towards me so I was able to see the handsome smile on his face. The darkness around us didn't feel so scary anymore, his presence was making it all go away. I was about to hug him, let his strong arms envelop my whole figure when another light appeared. It was a girl I didn't know but I recognized her instantly. I've seen her before. It all went down that night.

They took each other's hand, smiled at each other and left. Walking away from me like I was never there. I felt something in my chest, it was heavy and aching. It's as if my heart was constricting, getting heavier by the second. I tried to chase them but my legs were sinking into the icky liquid, the solid ground below me suddenly gone. I pulled my legs up and wiggled around to not sink deeper but it was like the fluid was alive and that it wanted to swallow me. I reached forward and tried to scream but no sound came out.

I couldn't even feel it vibrate in my throat. Like my body was made out of nothingness... Like I was nothing. They were getting farther and farther away, his light growing weaker each step. The darkness was back but this time it brought something else. It was cold. Unforgiving and cruel coldness. I can see my panicked breaths turning into mists, curling up in the air as I shivered uncontrollably. I can barely see them now, nothing but a couple of distant specks floating.

I want him to go back. I didn't want to be alone.

I didn't want to be cold. I want to feel the warmth he gave me.

I don't want to stay in the dark and I don't want to feel this heaviness in me.

I want the safety and assurance he made me feel.

I didn't even notice that my upper body is already submerged. I didn't even care at that point. Dying looked like a better option than to continue suffering in the freezing temperatures of this pitch black world. Before I was fully submerged, I heard a voice. It was mine... But I didn't recognize it. It sounded vicious and ruthless, it felt like something evil took my voice and spoke to me.

He can never love you as much as you love him.

How could he?

You can't even love yourself.