Addicted

Chapter 4 - An Old "Friend"

⚠Mention of depression/Angst, and a little bit of cussing⚠

Pico's POV

It was early in the morning, I couldn't think about anything but Boyfriend. I don't know why, but him being with someone else bothers me so much. Why can't I just be happy knowing he found someone that deserves him?! "Don't lie to yourself.. You still love him, don't you?" What..? who was that..? "You don't remember me..?" What?! how the fuck are you reading my thoughts?!! "Watch your language, you worthless brat." "What do you want from me..?" I say in an angry tone. "Calm down, I won't hurt you." "Then what do you want..?" "Don't you want that blue haired boy all to yourself again?"...

"Again..?"

"Of course."

"How did you know we used to date?"

"Silly little ginger boy, how could you forget about me?"

"We've never met, I don't know what you're talking about.."

"Yes we have, You defeated me once before, but I'm back."

"Defeated?"

"I'm the voice inside your head, last time we talked I made you go insane.." He cackled

The voice inside my head? Aren't they the one.. Who made me hurt Keith..? That voice, made me depressed, soon after, turning me insane.. So much that I hurt Keith, and was separated from him, but because I was given help, I eventually got rid of that voice inside my head. After I thought I defeated it, I came back home to Keith, hoping he was still there. Waiting for me to finally come back home, I thought he would forgive me for hurting him, but when I got to my house. He wasn't there anymore, All the lights were off and all of his stuff was gone.

When I realized he was never coming back, I laid down on my bed sobbing the whole night just thinking about him, but to think the voice would come back.. I don't want to deal with it alone again, Keith please come back.. Who am I kidding..? "He wont come back, no matter how much you cry or scream for help he'll never come back to you, come on, It'll just be like the old times. Just you and me.." "Please, leave me alone.. I don't want you to make my life miserable again.. I'm sick of this.."

"You want him back don't you? Kill the girl then." 

"No! he'll just hate me even more.. I should just leave him alone and move on.."

                                                         "You're such a useless, pathetic brat..! This is why he doesn't love you."

"..."

"They're right, I am useless, worthless, pathetic, and an idiot, I don't know how to do anything right. I always rely on other people, I don't know who I am anymore." I start to tear up.. "You act tough, but in reality you're just a fucking weakling.." I.. "Go ahead, cry it out no one will come to help you anymore." I start to tear up knowing everything it says is right. "Make yourself feel more pathetic." I sob and sob, until I pass out from exhaustion..

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I wake up, It was almost nighttime and I haven't done anything except cry. I go down stairs to grab something to eat, "What do you think you're doing?" ..Oh it's the Voice again.. "Grabbing something to eat..?" "You don't deserve to eat anything." This is getting annoying.. "And who am I to listen to you, your bitch?"..."It's fine if you don't listen to me, but heed my warning." "What..?" "Keith will never love you again.." The Voice says harshly. Does he think I'll listen to him? Well I won't give up trying. 

A/N: Sorry if this chapter is a little confusing! But [this font] means it's the voice talking inside Pico's head, and [this font] means it's Pico talking in his head, hopefully you guys understand!