songs used in this: if the world was ending by JP Saxe and Julia Michaels, someone to you by BANNERS, falling by Harry Styles and with or without you by U2
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𝐢𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 - 𝐛𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐥 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐧𝐠
for: j.n, e.n, f.f, a.z, s.f, n.n, e.s, m.c, m.h-m, h.s, s.m, l.t, a.r, k. A.a and a.m
The room now empty, your perfume fading every time the door opens.
Why did you have to go? I still love you, and I know you still love me.
That text yesterday. You said you missed me too.
But I thought you hated me?
The words that flew out of my mouth,
Didn't they wound you?
Stop. You're confusing me.
I'm six feet under. The monster under my bed comes out every night;
You're not there to fight it.
Were we ever meant to be? Will we have no always?
I think of you every night in bed, and wonder;
'Who are you to do this to me?'
I'm strong, am I not?
No, your voice gave me strength.
It's not there anymore, and my strength leaves me,
Like the soul that left the moment you did.
I walk past the park.
And the cafe and the bookstore, but you're never there.
I know you weren't down for forever,
But am I just someone you won't talk about?
It's been a year now and I think I've figured out how, how to think about you without it ripping my heart out.
We've run out of things we can say.
The knife twists in my heart, but your photograph stops the blood from pouring.
You'll never need me again.
I sink to the ground, and the Earth cracks beneath my feet.
A sudden realization hits me; the text finally makes sense.
My heart heals a little.
But if the world was ending you'd come over, right?
- c.d, if the world was ending and falling
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( i can be ) 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 - 𝐛𝐲 𝐣𝐞𝐰𝐞𝐥 𝐧𝐲𝐮
for: c.d, e.n, f.f, a.z, s.f, n.n, n.r, r.h, c.m, a.s, s.v, & l.h,
was my fate sealed? that was when realisation had hit me.
could i dive and disappear without a trace? or would the remains come back and ruin it all
hadn't i left it all behind? or did the mere memory of you hold me back from whatever else remained? why would this be so hard?
did you drown in my trepidation? did you feel the thorn twist in your side?
i just wanted to be someone. capable of love. could i be the one you're calling?
even when the sun sets and the sky gets cold. would you wait for me?
i'd wait for you
it was a simple twist of fate. a sleight of hand, on a bed of nails you made me wait.
the letters that you left inside that cardboard box meant more to me than you could ever have known
i was taught to be strong alone, alone by myself.
taught to let it hurt until it couldn't anymore - but somehow, i was deserving enough for you to have entered my life and undeserving enough to have you leave
you were hardly what i had pictured, but you were everything i'd always wanted.
with or without you, the memory of you remains
i don't wanna die or fade away, but here i am.
living; breathing. despite it all
i'll make the starlight circle the room all just for you.
you had once told me. that was when we realised what love truly was
that was until my hands turned tied and my body bruised; you've got me nothing to win
and nothing left to lose
were you still that someone i needed so desperately to love?
or were you the image of what i wanted to love?
i didn't know, so i searched for you in another person
my greatest achievement was being the someone you had once loved
but i chose to be someone to somebody,
with or without you.
- j.n, someone to you and with or without you
