Existence

Chapter 10

(Lyrik in Media)

Jamal's POV

Did I really hear her just say she's a virgin? Maybe I didn't hear her right. "I shouldn't have led you on to think I was anything different." She said. I rubbed my hands over my head. Damn. That was something I should've known.

"I'm sorry," she says getting off of the bed and then opening her bedroom door , " If you wanna leave you can and --" I got off the bed and cut her off with a kiss. When I pulled back she still had her eyes closed. "I don't wanna leave," I say looking into her eyes once they were opened, " I'm not trying to hit it and quit it. I wanna be in it for the long run." Lyrik didn't say anything. I pulled her in to embrace her and I could feel my heart beating out of my chest.

After a while we just laid in her bed spooning. Something just felt right with her body pressed against mine. Me holding her, made me never want to let her go.

Lyrik POV

Jamal and I fell asleep in my bed. I woke up to his arms still wrapped around me and his grip was mighty tight. I turned over trying to be at ease, and not waking him. He turtned to lie on his back still sound asleep. I rubbed my finger on his soft face. He looked so adorable when he was asleep. I didn't want to seem like a bit of a creeper, so I turned over and just layed there. No thoughts came to mind and I just gazed.

An half an hour later, I felt him move. He raised up and rolled over to my side. I rolled over making eye contact. "Well, hello there strnager." He said in a grunt. "Stranger," i started, " if we're strangers then why are you in my bed?" I asked jokingly. He laughed. "Might I say you are the most beautiful stranger I've ever seen." " Hmm, no my mom told me to never talk to strangers." We both laughed. "I'm sure there's gotta be a way for you to make an exception." He said leaning downwards to kiss my lips.

He deepened the kiss, but after a hot second I had to break it. "You should be heading home." I said sitting up. "If you want me to go, I'll go." He sat up and sat next to me. " It's not that I want you to go," I started, "my mom would flip if you stayed the night." He nodded his head. I felt bad and I really wanted him to stay. We could cuddle all night.

"I'm staying over Lana's house next weekend. If you want you could swing by."

"I'll stop by, but I'ma bring my boy Carlos." He said tying his shoe. " Yeah, that'll be okay." I remembered that Lana said that she was feeling Carlos a while back.

He finished tying his shoes and told me to walk him to the door. I lead him down the stairs and to the door. Before I coulld even unlock the door, he turned me around and our lips met. This was more of an agressive kiss. I didn't know what to do other than to kiss him back. I felt my stomach drop. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I placed my arms around his neck.

He slipped his tongue into my mouth and I became weak. We came up for air and before I could move away, he cupped my face in his hands and we started into each others eyes. He put our heads together, and we just sat there. I put my hand on his chest. " I should go." He said still holding me. I nodded my head. It took us a while to let go, but when we did I opened the door and he left.

I turned to look at the clock on the wall.... 11:37

Jamal's POV

I left Lyrik's house feeling some type of way. It's like I didn't want to leave. I've never felt this way. I know that sounds like a cheesy cliche, but I can't fuckin help it. I know I like her and all, but damn. This shit has got me going crazy.

I pulled up to my driveway and parked my car. As soon as I got into my house, I plopped right down on the couch. Once I started to relax, my phone started to vibrate. I picked it up in a hurry hoping it was Lyrik. It wasn't...it was Carlos:

Carlos: Aye man

Me: Wassup mann

Carlos: U tryna head out this weekend?

Me: Nah mann

Carlos: Y not bruh?? There's these 2 girls who got ass for days.

Me: I got plans with Lyrik

Carlos: shit man yall that serious?

Me: whatever mann her friend a single

Carlos: who is her friend?

Me: yo boo thang Alana

I knew I had him now. I knew full well he wasn't gonna turn down this date.

Carlos: frfr????? I gotta see if I can cancel with the girls. I'll back to u..

Me: alr mann bet

Carlos: Bet

I already knew he was going too do everything in his might to cancel with those girls next weekend. He didn't have to say it, but I just knew. I probably should've told him that me and Lyrik were getting serious, but I didn't feel like discussing it tonight. I was hella tired and ready to go to hit the bed. Another lonely night in this empty ass house man. I wish Lyrik hadn't put me out tonight.

Lyrik's POV

I'm tossing and turning in my bed because I just can't go to sleep. Why can't I just go to sleep? I decided to just get up and headed downstairs for some cookies and cream ice cream. You would think I had enough ice cream, but it's a terrible habit that I just can't seem to just break. Once I got my ice cream I headed back to my room and got in my bed.

Once I got good and comfortable, I turned on my tv and put it on mute. I turned the tv to Being Mary Jane being on. I didn't really like Gabrielle Union on this show, but a sista played her role. She knew she was making her money.

Sometimes I wish I could be like Gabrielle. She is so smart, determinded, goal oriented, and talented in very many ways. I wish I was as strong as she is, mentally and physically. I'm sure you're wonderiing why I'm being such a cliche, but I don't really care.

As I'm sittig here lost in my thoughts, Jamal pops into my head. Was I really starting to feel him? Is he really feeling me? Why is he feeling me if he is? We really couldn't stand each other before. Why are things so different now? This is stupid. Why am I worried about all of this? It's not like he's making me his girlfriend or anything. We've only been hanging out for the past month or so. Maybe I should just quit while I'm ahead. I'm probably just making it more than what it is anyway.

Ugh.. why can't I just get my head together? I woke back up to reality, and got out of bed. I put the ice cream in my mini freezer in my room and got back in bed. I turned off the tv and bundled up in my covers. I was in complete darkness. Time for sleep.