Para Siempre

chapter 4

CAMILLA'S POV

               TIME SKIP 3 WEEKS (WHEN NINA COMES HOME!!)

I woke up in a cold sweat silently crying as usual. I haven't been able to sleep well since my mother died. It's the same thing that happened with my dad. I would always have bad dreams and they felt so real. When my dad died they lasted for like a month it was him crying on his hospital bed begging me to save him but now it's my mom crying in the car wreck and they always make me stay up for the rest of the night. I was 16 when my dad died and every night when I had the nightmares I would climb out my window and walk to Usnavi's apartment he was always able to calm me down. But I'm too afraid to do that because he needs his rest. I mean he's running the bodega plus I don't want to seem as helpless as I really am. So I just suffer with sleepless nights and get two coffees in order to make it through the day. Usnavi seems to have caught on that something is wrong but he leaves it- my thoughts were caught off by the sound of tapping on my window. We don't have any trees by our house because of the elevator train. So I know it's either some really fucking annoying animal or a person. I slowly approach the window, not sure what to expect. But when I pull back the curtains I see Usnavi.

He looks like he's shivering slightly so I immediately open the window and pull him inside. "What the fuck are you doing here?!" I whisper shout at him. "I'm here to comfort you or talk to you cause I know the nightmares are back you are always tired and you look depressed all the damn time plus you're getting two coffees when everyone at the salon comes in and gets their own." he states matter-of-factly. "Oh and also you're up right now and it's like 2am so don't even try to tell me you're ok when you clearly aren't. Do you remember what I said back on our first day of highschool?" Well shit he can read me really fucking well and how could I forget what he said to me on our first day of hisghschool it's what made me realize I'm in love with him, "You said ' Hey listen before we go in there I want you to know whatever happens whoever is in there and whatever happens within the next four years I'll be here for you every step of the way no matter what because I love you and you mean so much to me.'" I say answering his question. "Yeah and I meant what I said clearly or we most likely wouldn't be here. You know if I didn't intend on keeping that promise I probably would have left after your first boyfriend all of them were so annoying" Usnavi laughs. "Hey they weren that bad'' I whisper hitting his arm lightly. "Maybe not to you but you weren't the one who had to deal with them constantly kissing you and hanging around when I just wanted time with you. But anyways that's not the point I want you to know that I meant everything I said every single word and I still do. I don't want you to be hurting and keep it from me ok? I want to be there for you and help you through whatever is going on no matter what it is." Usnavi whispers, grabbing my arms and bending down slightly so he can look me in the eyes. I look down at my feet as he says this blushing slightly but at the same time I feel tears welling in my eyes. I've put him through so much and I don't know how he puts up with all of it if I were him I would have distanced myself a bit too afraid to deal with all of it. He grabs my chin between his thumb and index finger forcing me to look at him. "Hey don't cry everything is ok I promise." he says after he sees my watery eyes. "I'm so sorry that I put you through all of this shit you don't deserve it." I say trying to look away but he won't let me. "Hey, listen to me I'm fine with taking on everything that's happening in your life if it means helping you or making you happy. I'll be here no matter what. If that means staying up waiting for you to come to my apartment so we can talk then so be it I'll do anything to help you I hope you know that." he says looking at me with a slightly pained expression. "Thank you for everything Usnavi means so much to me" I say burying my head in his chest. "Of course Cammy." we stand there for like 5 minutes until Usnavi speaks up saying "Yo we should lay down on your bed cause you need your sleep you clearly haven't been getting enough rest." "Ok I guess just don't leave please." I say basically whimpering while walking to my bed with Usnavi behind me. "Of course not Cammy I would never leave you." Usnavi responds.