𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚣𝚘𝚗𝚎 // 𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚢 𝚋𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚗 [𝟷]

1.14

So my whole life I've never really felt like a guy would ever want me.

Now there are three guys that might? I don't know.

I mean with Nicholas it was a given. I mean I think I like him. We've talked everyday for the past 5 months.

Ricky. I've had feelings for him for years, upon years, upon years. And now finally he might be reciprocating those feelings.

And now EJ? I'm still kind of confused. I mean last week I hated him. Now we text like a lot. Maybe I'm misreading that whole thing. Maybe we're just friends. I hope we're just friends.

For now, I'm just gonna focus on figuring out my feelings for Nicholas and Ricky.

Nicholas. He's been there for me since the day I met him. I've always felt like there was something there. But it never came out till recently.

And Ricky. Most people would probably be mad at him for not knowing if he has feelings for me or Nini. Or if he has feelings for both of us. But I'm in no place to judge since I'm in the same boat.

Wait. Nini.

OH CRAP! I have to tell her something happened. How do I tell her that?

I mean she obviously still has some feelings for Ricky. Right?

I pull out my phone and start to text Nini. I ask her to come over.

After like 10 minutes I hear a knock at my door. I run down and open it.

"Thalia. What's up?" Nini asks furrowing her eyebrows at me.

"I'm sorry, Nini. But I- Ricky and I kissed on Thanksgiving," I sigh. "I'm so sorry. I promise you, I thought my feelings for him were gone but I-"

"Thalia! It's okay," She chuckles and places her hands on my shoulders.

"Really?" I ask.

"Yeah. Remember a couple weeks ago? When we were kind of arguing?" She asks. I nod. "Well, I've been thinking about it. You're right. I knew you liked him, but I liked him too. And I do still have feelings for Ricky, but I understand you do too. It's not your fault, you can't just choose. But I promise not to be one of those girls who lets a guy get in between us. Thalia, you're on of my best friends."

"Nini, I love you so much," I sigh and give her a big hug. "But, you see.. He said he has feelings for both us, at least he thinks so. It's honestly super confusing, but I'm in a similar position."

Nini sits on my couch and pats the place next to her.

"Tell me everything!" She demands.

I chuckle and sit down.

"Well, Ricky. I've had feelings for him since forever. But then Nicholas... he comes along. He helps me through everything. He gives me advice. I get to know him. And then now I have these butterflies whenever he's around," I explain.

"Wow... well, that's lovely!" She dryly chuckles.

"Look, Thalia, I only want what's best for you. And honestly, both of them, I think, would treat you well. I can obviously see the way Nicholas looks at you. Everyone can. He's totally head over heels for you. And Ricky... I think he might be too. I mean, I've noticed him looking at you with Nicholas. Sometimes he's heartbroken and others he's angry. But you have to figure out who you have stronger feelings for. I know you'll be able to figure it out. You're Thalia, the problem solver. You can do anything," She assures me.

"Thank you, Nini," A small tear falls down my cheek. "Honestly, it feels good to have a girl friend to talk to. I feel like Alaina and I are drifting apart. I have no idea why."

"Well, I'm always here for you. So is Kourtney. We always have been, always will be."