Him (BTS J-HOPE FANFIC)

- Deja Vu~ (Extended Version)

After a few days I was able to leave the hospital, but I visit everyday and stay there all day. Jay is still in a comma, it breaks my heart knowing he hasn't woken up. Sometimes I watch him as he sleeps, and wonder if he's dreaming anything. Or what he's dreaming of. My sweet baby, even when he sleeps you can tell how much of an amazing person he is. I wanted to bring along the triplets with me, but I'm not allowed. The guys barely visit, they've been so busy with their job and all. They're having just as a hard time, because of me of course. Their manager hates me. I don't blame anyone who does, look what I've done. At times I get vulnerable and think about leaving without warning. But then I think, what if Jay wakes up and asks for me? Knowing him, he'd pack up everything and leave with our triplets to go hunt for me. And I can't let him do that. But then I wonder, what if he wakes up and doesn't remember a thing? Would it be better if it was to stay that way? Forever?

Jungkook: Noona.. (whispers)

I turned around and immediately got up to hug him, then gently sat back down.

"Jungkook...what are you doing here? Did you guys get a day off? Where are they?"

V: Jin and Jimin went to check on the triplets, the rest are busy. But we're here.

He smiled, I nodded and turned back to face Jay. It's been 3 weeks now and he still hasn't woken up. I have to be as patient as possible, I didn't wake up until after 2 months. So I don't care how long it'll take him.

Jungkook: Noona...do you miss him?

V: tsk..of course she misses him.

I chuckled. "I miss him very much Jungkook.. I swear if I could I'd go back in time and change everything..."

V: He will wake up soon. Hobie is a strong man, his soul is full of hope.

I smiled.

Jungkook: Should we sing for him? That'll help right?

I lightly chuckled at his suggestion.

V: Guess it wouldn't hurt? Ally you with it?

"...of course I am." I said low.

Jungkook: Later though, I'm hungry.

I laughed.

V: thanks for ruining the moment maknae -_-

Jungkook gets up and heads to the door.

Jungkook: You guys want anything?

"No..I'm good."

V: I want a candy bar.

Jungkook nodded and left. I caressed Jay's cheek, and smiled to myself, wondering if he sang to me while I was in a comma.

V: Ally..

"Mm?" I faced him.

V: I-I'm..sorry..

"For what Tae?" I glanced back at Jay.

V: For kissing you...that..n-night..

My smile faded, my heart ached remembering that night.

"I forgive you...just..don't do it again."

V: I love you...

I looked at him. "I love you too.."

V: But not the way I do.

"Probably more then, I love you Tae, I love Jin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Jungkook, Jimin and Jay. You guys are my life, from when I first discovered you guys...to meeting you guys.. to becoming family... I still can't believe it. Never in my life did I imagine I'd be apart of your lives. I'm very grateful. I love you all, just as you all love me. Jay is my husband and father of my kids, you guys are family. I love you all."