I am conflicted
With myself, I'm at war
I am confused
Where to go? I don't know
Always blamed something, someone
To find excuse for my decision
To justify my action
But this victim playing has to stop
On the stage of maturity
I saw the world differently
Gone is the innocent girl
I have changed in a whirl
Waves of realization hit me
It knocked my breath away
I just wanted to flee
Away from my memories
All the things I did
Came back in a tsunami
All the shame and disappointment
I withdrew to my shell
I unconsciously became two-faced
Confused which is which
I lost something, I can't pinpoint
There's a void, I can't fill
I hated the people
I hated the attention
I hated the stares
I hated myself
I shut myself from the world
I shut myself from the people
I shut myself from my friends
I shut myself away....
I wanted to fly away from here
I lost the face to face everyone
I've got many things on my mind
This paranoia has to stop.
