It's Always You!

Telling Them!

I watch as everyone turns their focus on me and my immediate reaction is the curl up into Tyler's side. Am I ready to talk about this? What if they react badly or I freak out. I lift my head up to look at Tyler. His eyes lock with mine and it's like we share an unspoken conversation. His eyes soften and he kisses my forehead, like he's trying to give me the courage I'm missing to talk to our friends.

I open my mouth and start to speak, my voice coming out quite and shaky 'I know you all have questions of your own and I wish I was strong enough to sit here and answer them all but the truth is I'm not the same person I was over a week ago. I'm constantly on edge, I panic when yall get too close to me and even though I know non of you would ever hurt me i still feel like I'm being hunted.'

I stop and try to steady myself as I feel the tightness in my chest get worse and the tingling sensation in my throat returns - please don't make me vomit. 'So, ugh after Dom left to come home from the skatepark Bryan, Tyler and I stayed behind and continued having fun. I'd just wrapped up my last trick and decided to sit down on the high ramp. I couldn't see Tyler or Bryan when I looked around so I went on my phone. I saw some movement to my side and saw this guy sitting down beside me.'

Dom 'Your doing great Lys, just pause and take a few deep breaths we are all here to support you.'

Tyler 'Your doing great, Baby. Just let me know if you need me to take over'

I nod my head and take a second to regain my confidence. 'He, this guy, he, well he started to talk to me and I had already gotten some weird ass vibes from him but I didn't want to be rude so I talked with him. B-but he started grabbing my thigh and then tried to kiss me. I got him off the f-f-first time and told him I had a boyfriend who would beat his ass if he didn't stop....' my voice cut out as a strangled sob took its place. Feeling embarrassed I immediately turn away from the sad looks of our friends and hide in Tyler's neck. 'Shhh, it's okay baby. He's not going to hurt you again. I promise. Let it all out' he whispers as he runs his hand up and down my back trying to sooth me.

Chris 'Are you trying to say this guy, raped you Alyssa?' His voice was so soft and calming, like he was talking to some mystical animal that he didn't want to spook. I wanted to answer him, I really did but I couldn't, I didn't know what to say to him. I wasn't raped but he'd made me feel like he was going to...he sexually assaulted me.... The realisation of what he'd done to me gave me a mixture of emotions...to the point I could feel my heart breaking from reliving the emotional, physical and physiological trauma that he'd left behind.

As I'm sobbing into Tyler's chest, I listen to the boys as questions.

Dom 'I'll fucking kill him' he spat as his hands balled into fists like he was getting ready to punch something or someone.

Bryan 'No you won't as that's not going to help Lyssa. Besides Tyler has already sorted him out. He won't be bothering her again'

Tyler 'So from what we know, after Aly got him off the first time, he tried it on again but this time around he used a lot more force and agrression. He was trying to rape her, his hands had gotten way too close and he'd left so many marks, scratches on her body....'

I pat his chest as I hear the pain in his voice, he's hurting just as much as I am. He stops as soon as I caress his chest. With my eyes still covered by the crook of his neck I continue to explain to the boys 'I was fighting him with everything I had in me whilst still trying to look around for Bryan and Tyler. I guess he took that as his opportunity to over power me. He was so much stronger than me, bigger build too. Somehow whilst I was distracted he had managed to get his hand under my shirt and up my thigh. My head was spinning and I just kept trying to get him off me when I spotted them across the park. Screaming as loud as I could for Tyler. His eyes locked on mine and within an instant they came running to help me. Tyler and Bryan pulled him off me and I just crumbled. Falling apart from the inside out before pulling away to hide in a corner on the ramp beside the railings.'

Bryan 'I've never seen anything like it before guys. Seeing someone you care about being attacked it tears you apart and we hadn't heard a thing. We had been less that 50 metres from them and we hadn't been aware.'

Chris 'I'm so sorry Alyssa. That should never have happened. We should have been there to protect you.'

Tristan 'Fucking scumbag. We should go to the police and get him arrested.'

My eyes go wide as the mention of the police. No, I didn't want that. I just wanted to forget about the whole ordeal and move on. 'No, No police. It's over and I'm going to get better I just need time. Besides Tyler showed him who he was fucking with and I think he's suffering right now.'

Dom 'What do you mean by that?!'

Bryan 'Tyler sort of lost his shit and beat the crap out of the guy. He broke his nose, a few ribs, honestly I'm not sure what else but he was dripping in blood.'

Tyler 'I should have killed him. The asshole deserved it.'

'No baby, you shouldn't have as no one is worth you giving up for your soul or freedom' I say with a sternness to my voice.

Tyler 'I don't care about my soul or freedom as long as your safe.'

'My safety is wherever you are Tyler, without you I wouldn't be here right now trying to move on with our friends'

Chris 'So this is why Mel changed all the rules and why you've not left your room?'

I nod in response to him, he looks between Tyler and I before a sad smile crosses his lips. 'I'm glad Alyssa has you Tyler. We all need someone to depend on.'

Tristan 'Please promise your going to eat Aly? I know it's hard but you have to eat.'

'I-I promise to try Tristan.' I whisper as I look around the room at our friends. All of them showing nothing but love, support and care for me, nothing like I thought it would be like when I'd tell them about what had happened.We continue to talk for a little while longer, until Bryan and Chris talk everyone into having a movie night filled with pizza, beer & candy.