A Silent Voice

Isaki's Secret Chapter- Not the life I imagined

            I'm Isaki Kurosawa, I'm 13 years old and I was born in Kyoto, Japan- but also I'm mute. Back in grade school my younger sister Shouko would always bully and belittle me in front of others and made me seem creepy and weird to everyone, I never really understood why until our 6th grade year when I finally asked her. To my surprise her answer was pretty selfish and rude, but I felt as if it was meant to be this way since I don't communicate like the other kids do. Maybe I was meant to be alone from the start?

            I remember asking her with my notepad 'why do you always treat me this way?' And she told me with a straight face, "because you don't need people if you can't talk to them." She chuckled a bit and said, "but it's ok right? You know since you never complained about it." She was right about me not complaining since I would be too scared to despite being older than her. I never had any close friends since Shouko always pointed out things about me that she knew people wouldn't like. She always said how I'd love to sneak out and walk around outside and night since I was into creepy and scary stuff. She even did pranks on me with her and her friends. Along with no friends I never had anyone special like a boyfriend. They'd be too weirded out to get to know me. Shouko has always acted like a stranger instead of a sister, a bully instead of a protector. Sometimes I even wonder what she'd do if I stopped going to school, or just ran away. I wondered if she'd cry, or laugh, even gloat, or feel sorry. But in the end I just kept dealing with it.

            Now this summer came along, and with it more problems. I found Ruisu, someone who I believed to be someone special to me. Someone I could rely one and be comfortable around. He treats me well and even buys me food and snacks which I enjoy eating with him. We made a small "house" together on the beach and it was super, super fun too. But when Shouko realized she started trying to take Ruisu away from me, and almost got him killed! She wants me to stay out of it and let him go like everyone else, but I can't- not like every other time. I have to keep him, I just have too!

                                         -Isaki Kurosawa-