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Hey y'all, Koi here for a sec to say in advance that this is based around su!c!d3 and if that's trigger to you on any level, I'd highly suggest not reading this, but if you can handle it, then do go ahead! Also remember, if you're ever in a dark place, please, try and talk to someone, you're loved and cared for, keep fighting 💙

Also once again, Sakusa still has a place in Hyōgo ^^

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Atsumu took in a sharp inhale, the cold spring air slightly burning his lungs. The wind that blew across his distressed face gave him chills, especially given the tears coating the blondes cheeks.

It made him shake lightly, both from the cold air seeping in through the crack in his window, and from the suppressed panic that Atsumu was refusing to let out.

Atsumu was always arrogant, egotistical, and more over — a completely asshole. Or so everyone thought. Though very few actually knew that was a complete lie, yes Atsumu could annoy people but it was always enjoyed. Besides that, he cared beyond deeply for the people he held close, especially those considered family. That family being his brother Osamu, his future brother in-law Suna, and his boyfriend, Sakusa.

Atsumu shook his head softly, more tears slipping from his glossy hazel eyes as he finished the last sentence on his letter. The blonde had enough, he was tired of the comments, the full blown harassment that was blown off as 'teasing', the insecurities that built over time thanks to it all, plus the inescapable anxiety that he kept bottled up every day, it was too much, he just couldn't take it anymore.

Atsumu sniffled and pulled down his sleeve, wiping his face as he looked back to his letter with tears eyes, reading over it once more to see if there was anything else he felt he had to say.

His letter read..

I don't know how to say it, because no sorry could fix what I'm doing to you all. But I'll still try, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry that I couldn't handle myself anymore. I really tried to stay strong, I even managed to stay silent about it, not to bother any of you.

But I just can't do it anymore, I can't go a single day without the dirty looks, the harassment, the rumours, and of course the attacks they bring along with it. I just can't do it, it's pathetic I know but I have nothing else to say besides I'm at my lowest point, I cant do this anymore.

Osamu, Suna, you two, despite our 'arguments' have been the closest to what I can call genuine family. And Osamu especially, I can't thank you enough for being my brother, even despite our fights. Make the Miya name known when I'm gone, okay? Show the world that even if I may not have been strong enough to go on, at least one Miya is.

Now, Kiyoomi.. I want to start this off by saying thank you. Thank you for letting me in, thank you for the time you spent with me, thank you for the new place you took me and the new feelings you gave me, and overall, thank you for loving me. There is no one in this world that could ever hold my heart like you do, and to think that you may see me the same way makes this even harder but, I can't go back now.

Please don't blame yourself for this, don't blame yourself for not noticing or not asking, no one was supposed to know, it's okay. It won't be easy but please for your own good, try and move on, keeping me on your mind will only hurt more.