I get upset, over small things. Things that don't bother most people but really tick me for some reason. Like a difference in the look in someones eyes or the way the put infliction on some words.
I get jealous. I know I shouldn't, that I more than likely have no reason to be. The voices tell me to read into every little word, post or comment.
I go empty. When I lay down and smile then all of a sudden its like everything is gone. All emotions sucks out of me into the void.
I get mad. From random thoughts or even just seeing something as I scroll by. I want to hurt but I can't be doing that..
I get high. It helps me eat, helps me sleep, but it feels like I'm just running away.
I get happy. When I'm with it its like I forget the negative and smile away, until you're gone.
I get scared. I don't want to lose you by making a mistake, reading into anything, saying something without thinking how it sounds. That you'll find you don't want me just like everyone else.
Why do I have so many thoughts? I'm drowning.
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My poems and Thoughts
شِعرThis is a small collection of my poems written throughout my time and the thoughts that swirl in my mind.
