Diary of the Hidden Queen

6/12/13

So can't over how drained I feel after every lesson with Pernilla. She says its normal but I feel like all I do is eat, sleep and practice. I have no other time to do anything which is why I haven't written in here in days.

Both Pernilla and Kieran are happy with my progress already. I can't help but wonder why? I mean yeah I healed Kieran multiple times but those were minor cuts. I know that anything I can do within the Blood element is good.

I feel like I should be doing a lot more than what I am. I've grown up on the run. I am ready for a live where I can stay in one place. I know I can't as long as she is still out there. I watch all of the kids at all of the schools I have gone to. I wonder every day what it would be like to be one of them. But it only last a few hours and then I am back here with Pernilla and Kieran. I love them both and I love what I am. Being one of the kids at school would make me normal true, but then I would be giving up everything I know.

I've begun feeling different. I asked Pernilla about some of the weird stuff I've been experiencing, but she is baffled by them. The weirdest of them all has been my dreams. I have been visited by a large group of people they are all taking to me about the coming months and what it will happen. They say that I will become the first and only of something. It seems just as I ask them what they mean I wake up. The last few nights Kieran is sitting in a chair next to me staring at me. He says he hears me scream and comes running. Pernilla remains asleep. I guess with his training his senses are more active at night.

Last night though, Kieran had said that right before my scream woke him he was in crowded room with all the past kings and queens of our society, in other words the Olium. He was in the back of the room and they were all looking towards a raised stage in the center. He moved closer to the stage to see what they were looking at. As he got closer, he could see a woman standing on the stage. He could only remember her hair but it was because he had never seen the color before. It was two toned blue and purple, which in our world represents two very different things. Blue are our Vates, some would say they were psychic but they really only just communicate with the Olium. Some do have visions but that doesn't really happen much anymore since our society is at peace. The purple hair represents royalty. If you see purple hair in our world you should bow because they are the king/ queen or soon to be king/queen. Which oddly enough I have purple hair. So in other words I am supposed to be Queen on day. I can only hope. As long as I can survive and beat the people after me I will be able to take my throne. I'm supposed to legally take over ruling when I turn 18 which will be in 11 months and 9 days. It's hard to believe that. I feel like I was just ten last year. I guess when you've lived like I have the days seem to fly by. All I can do is wait and hope my future is good, which I have a feeling I will lose a lot in the next year.