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Read Through.
That's what today was, it was the day of the read through and Ryan was in such a good mood that she decided to wear white. Yes you might think that's not a bring deal but it was a massive deal to Ryan ever since her parents decided to flee she felt as if she couldn't be herself as her own parents didn't even like her.
So her bright stylish clothes turned to black emo like clothes which really did represent how she felt inside. The only time she remembered being truly happy was middle school, life was real simple back then and she had the best of friends and crush.
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The brown skin girl was waiting outside the men's bathroom for two weirdos she called friends, she was getting frustrated and as they were going to make her late for their first rehearsal and being late for Ryan was like murder. She never understood why but it just irritated her, and that's why she yelled, "I swear to God if we are late I wil-" "you will hunt us down and end our lives painfully then move on to our families until our blood line is disconnected" Ricky recited whilst walking out the bathroom, "you've been saying the same thing since your second day of school, you really thought I'd forget Harmony" She was about to respond before she got a whiffed of something nasty. "Richard Bowen what did you shower in"
"I'm changing this thing over with thermoses so I sprayed Throb all over me" Ryan blinked it was at this moment she knew love made you stupid. "The name of the cologne is called 'Throb' and you thought I'd be clever to spray it all over yourself" He just stared at her blankly which caused her to roll her eyes and grab big red's arm, who'd be standing there silently listening to the scene that just unfolding in front of him. Ricky soon followed behind.
Once they entered the bomb shelter , Ryan was truly amazed when she had a read through with the old drama teacher they just sat on the floor, but here the chairs were in a circle and there were names printed on top of them, it was beautiful. Ryan left the boys quickly due to Ricky's horrible scent, she then sat next to Sebb, who'd be playing Ryan and Ashlynn who was playing Miss Darbus. The three surprising got on well, so well that Ryan agreed to help Ash write her power ballad for act 2. And well Sebb was just Sebb and she learnt that he has a thing for Carlos which she obviously shipped.
Big red then had to fill in for the stage manager which made Ryan secretly wheeze she knew he was a horrible public reader. All cast members and crew took their seats and opened their script.
So here they were, everyone was seated in their designated seats about to begin a new era, it was really the start of something new.
On one side of the circle it was, Big red, EJ, Ricky, Nini and Gina, and the other it was Carlos, Sebb, Ryan, Ashylnn and Isabell.
After silencing their phones Miss Jenn began her some what encouraging speech, "I realised that you all walked in here as strangers," if only she knew that these kids had drama of their own they were far from strangers, I mean literally so far from it that Ashylnn just had to announce, "actually Ej is my cousin"
The air filled with an awkward tension, Ryan snickered, she enjoyed embarrassing and uncomfortable situations, well when it didn't concern her. It allowed her brain to think about other things other than herself which stop her harsh thoughts.
"But after today, you are family...." Miss Jenn continued, maybe the speech would've meant something if each person other than Isabell, Sebb and Ashylnn weren't dreaming of each other's downfall.
"Please take each other's hands." Miss Jenn demanded. Everyone took each other's hands with ease, well when I say everyone I'm not including Ricky, EJ and Nini. It took Isabell to get up from her seat and individually connect their hands together she honestly thought it was embarrassing, which it was.
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After an interesting read through, Ryan and Isabell slowly skated to Ryan's house.
Truth be told both girls were nervous of this semester and show. This was there escape from their busy lives and as much as Ryan liked thinking of other things other than herself she was scared that Nini and her weird love triangle would ruin one of the only things she enjoyed and that was acting. Maybe if she sucked it up and auditioned for Gabriella she would be lead and Nini would Kelsi and stay in her place but what is done is done.
"Ryan, maybe we are worrying over nothing and at dance rehearsal everyone will be on their A game and we will have the best show in the history of shows." Isabell stated in a very doubtful tone she honestly had the same thoughts as Ryan she is just a little bit more optimistic.
"Yeah, hopefully" Ryan looked of in the distance, "is it okay is I go home alone, I was writing this song at lunch and I have this idea and if I-"
"Hey, its cool, I have homework anyways, I'll see you tomorrow." And with that Isabell skated off too her house, she was used to Isabell rescheduling and she didn't mind she knew Ryan need time for herself, she was just worried on what she actually does in those times.
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Once Ryan got home she sat on her keyboard bench picturing a beautiful sunset as she stood on a rooftop, a rooftop which led to her escape and happiness. Many people would be scared if they were this high but Ryan was at peace, the thought of accidentally falling was intriguing to her and the idea of never being able to come back and live her life was a dream in itself, but she could never jump. There was something or someone holding her back like an imaginary rope telling it'll get better.
She never believed the rope or whatever it is but she kept hoping secretly.
She grabbed her notebook and began writing her chords and lyrics whilst humming away. Sacha knew never to interrupt the girl whilst she was songwriting. It was her escape and she wanted her sister to find some sort of peace in this chaotic world that her sister hated.
Ryan always dreamed of a world were she didn't find calmness in the most violent things because maybe she'd feel normal then. Why couldn't she be the kind of kid, who was happy over the clouds and the sun not the idea that everyone dies and wishing for the next funeral to be hers. But I guess everyone is different.
Ryan closed her book and put her hair in her bonnet, whilst changing into her pjs. she fell on her bed suddenly feeling exhausted.
"How am I this tired and its only the read through?"
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hey guys, I wrote this once I remembered this book lol, I related to Ryan so much if you find her triggering in anyway please don't read your mental health is more important than this book also.
If you feel like Ryan and you ever need anyone to talk to,, hit me up we basically strangers so you can vent to me and no one you know will ever find out also I'm a great listener.
