My Brother's Best Friend

Suicide

Once I got home I was the happiest person alive when I saw Kian not home. I ran into the kitchen grabbed Advil and my anti-depressants. I also grabbed the sharpest kitchen knife and ran to my room. I sat down on my bed thinking about how I'll be with my mom and sisters soon. As I slid the knife across my arm for the 1.....2....3....4.....5.......6.......7......8......9...... after that I lost count I heard the front door open. I immediately grabbed the Advil and my pills and shoved 10 of each on my mouth. I did that three times. I then heard a knock on the door.
" Hazel I know your in there doing something I don't want to know but I'm coming in" he said to me in a nervous tone. He walks in and falls to his knees and cried.
"Why Hazel why?" he asked me but it sounded more like a statement.
"I'm sorry Kian I can't tell you, but i'll tell you on Monday." I told him but not thinking that I might not be alive on Monday and all Jc's fault. I can't believe it lead me to do this for him to be happy but someone I know won't be happy is Kian. He'll be a lonely person with no siblings or parents. I thought for a minute. Is this really worth it?
"No I want to take it back I want to stay with you!" I screamed at him but I slowly lost conscienceness. I heard in the background Kian yelling at someone who sounded a bit like Jc but I wasn't sure. I then heard someone say something I had never heard in my life.
"I can't believe I did this to her. She never did anything wrong I'm such a horrible person!" I heard I think Jc tell himself.
"Ya I know your a horrible person! You killed my only living relative and you killed her. Great going Jc!" Kian screamed at Jc and then my ears stopped listening and it all went black.