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Stony- I'm not afraid anymore

(Please skip to Stucky- Fear, it's better written and I think you'll enjoy it.)
*Tony knows that his nightmares are only starting to get worse and the only thing helping prevent that is Steve's hugs and cuddles at night. But what would happen if Steve was away on a 1 week mission trip?*
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Warnings: Angst (maybe?), gun and violence
Includes: Fluff
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"Alright Tones, I'm off. I'll come back as soon as the mission is completed." Steve said in a calm but happy voice, scared to upset Tony.

"I know Capsicle" Tony chuckled. "I promise I won't lock away myself in the Lab." Steve looked into his eyes but couldn't see any lies.

"It'll be alright, I'll be there." Steve said very calmly in a soothing voice.

Tony felt a gulp in his throat, he knew what he meant and didn't want to start crying. So he simply nodded.

"Ok, c'mon guys let go!" Steve shouted for the rest of the group on the plane before looking into Tony's eyes on more time.

No one's POV:
It's been 16 hours, 37 minutes and 13 seconds since they left. He was bored out of his gut. He watched a movie. John Wick 1(great movie, I recommend watching it!!//) He did some work on the computer and took a nap. He really wanted to tinker with his suits.
He went down to the lab and thought a few hard moments if he should open the door or not, since he promised Cap he would not lock himself in there. He went in, into the ginourmous lab and licked himself in there for two days.
He was practically living of wine and bread, being too scared to sleep.

"Sir, there has been a voicemail sent by Dr.Strange." J.A.R.V.I.S said, "Patch it through J" Tony answered.

"Hej Tones, it's me Steve. Im using Strange's Stark phone since I lost mine. Be sure to take care of yourself and rest, at least try to. When I come home you can have as many cuddles as you want, dear." Tony chuckled at the nickname.
He kept blushing thinking of the relationship he and Steve had, they weren't boyfriend's but Tony wanted them to be, he loved being called dear by his crush.

He has been awake for 79 hours, and he just kept on refusing the need of sleep and rest his body wanted.
He ordered J.A.R.V.I.S to dim the lights and make sure that there aren't many sounds coming in through the large mansion.
He went to bed and made sure to be comfortable, since Steve wasn't there to cuddle with him, he wanted to have some more blankets and pillows. After a few restless minutes Tony was finally able to rest and get some sleep.

The first few hours were great, he slept for 7 hours until 6am. He woke up because of being thirsty, but went back to sleep for another hour. He was sleeping well and even had a nice dream. Until he got a sleep paralysis.

*In Tony's Dream Paralysis*

"STEVE!" Tony yelled after his boyfriend that was being choked by some Hydra agents. Steve started coughing blood and in a few seconds he lost all life in his eyes. Tony was crying in the ground in the forest- the battlefield- unable to move to touch his boyfriend or teammates that lied on the ground dead.
He screamed and screamed trying to open his eyes but all tries unsuccessful.
He started crying knowing that Steve won't be here beside him for a while.
When he looked up he saw Hydra agents with a spear and a gun. Taking of his clothes slowly and pointing the gun to his arc reactor. Tony breathed one last time before hearing a gun shot.
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He woke up in his bed sweaty, crying, his heart pounding like crazy and feeling like everything around him is an enemy. He broke down, he couldn't bear the fact that he accepted this in his life, he wanted this to stop, the pain, the loneliness.. He wanted Steve.
He went down to the lab and started tinkering with MK56, he didn't want to sleep. He was scared.
'Heh, funny isn't it, me the one and only Iron Man scared? Of sleeping' Tony thought to himself trying to make himself feel better. But it didn't work. When he checked the time it was 7.50 am and decided to go eat some breakfast, some toast with tea and strawberry.
He ate, only feeling like puking but he did it for Steve. Sometimes Tony was honestly surprised how much one man changed his life.
He was drinking some water (yes, I know it's shocking) when he felt large hands grabbing his shoulders, then sliding down to his waist.
He set the glass down and turned around to hug the giant man.
"Hey Tones, how are you?" Steve said as softly as he could. Until he heard Tony sobbing, he lifted Tony onto the counter and started rubbing his back not letting go of the hug. Or more likely Tony wrapping his arms around Steve's neck. "I... Wh..y, are you.... here..?" Tony said softly, sobbing. "And where.. is the, crew?"
"There, there Tony. It turned out to be a successful mission and we got to refund only after four days. The rest of the crew are out eating pizza." He said smoothly. "And I had to come to check on you, Tony" Steve said while he caressed Tony's cheek and year with his thumb.
Tony mini smiled and the two stared at each other eyes deeply. Until Steve broke the comfortable silence by saying "Tony, will you be my boyfriend?" Tony blushed deeply and nodded eagerly. "Yes.., I'd love too."
They shared a comfortable silence before Steve pulled Tony into a kiss. A deep but passionate kiss.
They pulled away and panted while looking at eachother. "I love you, so much, I've been wanting to tell you for a while now Tones..." "I love you too" Tony said with a deep smile while picking up Steve's hand and resting his cheek on it.
"C'mon, let's go to sleep." The blond said with a smile. The older man carried his boyfriend and they went to king sized bed, they changed their clothes and immediately melted into sleep with Tony resting his head on Steve's chest and Steve hugging him tightly from the waist.
Natasha was able to sneak a picture.
When they woke up they saw a note on the door.

" Please do be quiet, the captions are sleeping !! "
Nat xx

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Actually, this story is inspired by the time when I hated sleeping and thought of it as my enemy. I used to wake up at the middle of the night because of my Anxiety and Panic attacks, my heart beating very fast and getting sleep paralysis. Over time it became better, but I realized that cuddling with someone can help calm you down. And that's it:) <3

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