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Chapter-5

_A.N_ Random video; Life Vs Me...😪

"Cause when I am with you There's no place I'd rather be.." I sing softly as I play the song Rather be, by Clean bandit, playing my violin.
I've been practicing Mozart's music for a while so I thought I'd change it up with a little more of today's music.
Multiple times Chrissy would knock on my door to make sure I was ok or wasn't burning off the strings of my violin from playing so much.
I back up my instrument into its case and the bow in its little box, setting it in the far end of my closet.
You need to talk to matt, he's your best friend, you can't let him be mad at you! You think to yourself and grab your phone and wallet.
You slip on some socks and your combat boots and jacket over, you were wearing a blue and white button up, black skinny jeans and your boots.
Finishing up your outfit with a black beanie, you walk down stairs in the kitchen to your mom and Chrissy.
"Hey missy." mom calls when you walk in.
"Hi mom, chrissy, I was just telling you that I have to go out to matts house to apologize for something stupid I did. I won't be gone long though." Chrissy's mouth rises up in a smirk, she always thought Matt and me were a thing so she always teased me about it.
"Of course! Be back before dinner though okay?" Mom said practically shoving me out the house.
I quickly walk down my block and turn a few times, it actually took longer walking to matts house than it would be driving, it got chilly as I turned the last corner to his block and walking up the driveway.
I knock on the door hoping Matt's mother would open the door so I could have a minute to think about what I would say. Luckily she did.
"Good evening Briar!.. Ugh such a beautiful name." Natalie, matts mom says. She always loved my name, complimenting it every time she heard it.
"Hello Natalie, is Matt home? I really need to speak with him." I ask smiling, giving her a quick hug. She was like my third mom, I guess, whenever my mom and Chrissy were busy with work or whatever and I needed help with something Natalie was always there.
"Yeah he's here, do you want me to call him down?." She pulls me into the lovely house.
"No, no that's fine I'll go up there myself." I say assuring her, i didn't want her to hear our conversation.
"Okay, I'll be in my room then, I need to catch up on my reading." She laughs lightly walking to her room on the other side of the house.
I take off my jacket and hang it up, walking up the steps i feel my phone vibrate in my hand, it was a text from Matt asking if I could come over. I giggled quietly typing back a 'I'm on my way' waiting a few seconds before opening his bedroom door, once I did he jumped so high he looked like he shit his pants he got so scared.
"Oh shit Bri, you scared me! When you said you'll be on your way I'd think it'd take a few minutes. Do you have superpowers?!" Matt says standing up, fixing his messy hair. He looks tired like he hasn't slept.
"I have my ways." I wink, placing my phone on his desk and walking over to Matt giving him a 'I'm sorry hug'.

"I'm sorry briar, I shouldn't have gotten so mad at you, you didn't do anything wrong it was me I-.." Matt rambles still hugging me.
I cut him off, pulling away and smacking his arm, I can't let him take the blame no matter how much he want to, it was me, I overreacted.
"Shut up Matt, you know dam well that you didn't do anything you was just trying to warn me, protect me and I overreacted, I'm sorry though but thanks matt, your awesome." I say, moving my hands all around as gestures, it was a habit of mine. It usually looks like I'm chopping up something or rolling things around my fingers, it's quiet funny if you think about it.
Matt sympathetically looks at me, his eyes staring into mine. I had nothing else to do so I cross my eyes, push up my nose to look like a pig, and stick out my tongue trying to get his attention.
Matt soon gains focus and bursts out laughing when he notices what I'm doing, he wipes his eyes when he calms down. I giggle lightly, his laugh was so contagious, it's high pitch with small snorts here and there, the tears that flow out his eyes it's so funny.
My laugh on the other hand is like a dolphin dying, on certain occasions my laugh sounds weird yet amusing others I'm a witch, it's so awkward.

"Your so weird it's hilarious." Matt says. He walks over to his tv in his room, turning it on along with his game console, we usually play this game I'm not even sure what it's called but Matt always end up winning. He slides the disk into the slot and hands me a controller.
I take a seat on a wheelie chair from matts desk and sit, crossing my legs. We start out the game, him being on too screen me on bottom, we're both in different areas so we have to find and kill each other.
"Oh shit I know exactly where you are!" Matt says excitedly.
"Stop cheating!! You asshole!" I scream as I see his character pop up on my screen and he begins to shoot, I lean forward in my seat my mouth agape I am so scared as I try to dodge his bullets. Suddenly I turn around to see if he's still chasing me which he is so I shoot, in every and any direction until his screen goes red.
"Yes!" I raise my hands in the air, happy that I finally killed matt.
"Relax a bit would ya, it's only round one and so far I'm in the lead." Matt rolls his eyes continuing the game.
"So far." I say winking.

A few more rounds later, and a lot of cursing and snack breaks, I won the game.
"Ha-ha I won the game, I won I won!" I say mocking Matt as I dance around his room.
"Cute, to bad I already beat the game and I let you win." Matt says scrolling through his phone.
"Sure you did." I say. He didn't let me win, I know he didn't.
"Whatever floats your boat briar."
I sit on matts bed and decide to go on twitter, I see that I got a direct message in a group text, a few of the 'popular' girls were in the chat so I'm guessing they added me by accident, I don't say anything of it though so I could be nosey.
After a few minutes, I see my name appear in one of the girls texts,

Silvia- god have you seen briar and Christopher, ugh I heard they went on a 'date', he's to good for her.
Janet- omg I know, he's totally trying to get in her pants, even though i don't know who would want to.. Ew!
Mia- ooooh that boy does things to me...
Mia- true though, she's really being slutty going on a date with him, she's just slutty in general wearing shorts and tank tops to school.
Silvia- well she better back the hell off cause Chris is mine.
Janet- Dayum girl, didn't you guys fuck like 3 times, I heard you guys did it in a bathroom stall once.
Silvia- oh gosh yeah it was awesome though. Too bad briar won't be getting anything from him or anyone ugh.
Janet- she's so annoying with her stupid violin 'look at me I'm talented' no bitch
Mia-lol yes I know

One tear fell into my phone. Then another. I wiped my eyes not trying to let Matt see me crying, even though he's seen me cry a few times. I slowly get up and walk to the bathroom, shutting the door after me.
I know I wasn't weird for playing violin, and that I wasn't ugly or a slut. I'm not really sure why I was crying, maybe just thinking of the fact Christopher and Silvia had sex like three times, but Christopher said he never liked her. Or maybe the fact that Matt was right and I doubted him. Or maybe just remembering my past, and past boyfriend, he called me fat once when I ate three slices of pizza I cried my eyes out that day. Maybe I was crying because I didn't know why I was crying, maybe I'm not even crying, maybe I'm dreaming.
Maybe not.
Two warm arms wrap around my small body as the other person towers over me, Matt turns me over so I'm facing him and I cry some more.
Maybe I was crying because I was happy, happy for having such great friends like Cassidy and matt. Or maybe because I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore, like I'm living just to get through my days now.
But maybe I'm crying because I think, think, just maybe
That I may be getting feelings for matt.
Maybe I was crying because he would never like his bestfriend in that type of way, a girl like me. Maybe because he liked someone else, or because he looked at me as a sister.
But maybe he could like me back, maybe that's why I was crying, maybe Matt is the solution for me and my issues.
Maybe because he was to shy to tell me, but then maybe I was still crying because he would never love a girl like me and someone else has his heart.
Maybe..