London's Calling : Ed Sheeran Fanfiction [Wattys 2015]

Chapter 10: Take A Day.

Ed's POV:

She had been here for a week.

We went back to her flat for some of her things. She had such an amazing taste, in well, everything. And she has a kitten.

This girl gets better and better every time I think about her or see anything that she does. There's such a great way about her. She glows every time that I see her smile. Her eyes shine no matter what mood she is in and there's a depth to them that I long to understand but can't seem to wrap my head around.

"What are you thinking about love?" she had a way of snapping me out of my day dreams.

She walked over to me as I sat on her bed while she gathered some of her clothes into a bag.

She came over to me and put her legs on either side of mine and I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"I was just daydreaming a bit." I said with a smile.

"Whatever you're daydreaming about, you must really like it because you had a grin the entire time." with this she giggled a bit. "It was probably something dirty right?"

"It could be if you wanted." I looked up at her and she leaned down to me and our lips locked. There was passion and purpose behind her kiss and I thought about how quickly this had all happened, but also how I was enjoying every minute of it.

I pushed her hair that was a bit messy today over her shoulder and kissed my way down her kneck. She let out a small moan and I laughed a bit.

She pushed me a bit and I knew that she meant for me to lay down.

I fell back onto her bed, but our lips barely parted. Her kisses were becoming powerful and she took in short and heavy breaths every so often.

I flipped us over so that she was laying in the bed now. She laughed again I think party out of excitement and the other part pure joy.

I took a moment to appreciate the way that her hair had fallen in her face and how her freckles shown through the dirty blond mess that covered her face. When she laughed, her cheeks made it almost impossible for her eyes to stay open, but I could see them. Their deep and detailed blue couldn't be missed and I reached down and pushed her hair back again behind her ear.

She brought her hand up to my face and made circles with her thumb around the side of my cheek. Her smile was small, but made my heart pound a bit harder in my chest. I turned my head to kiss her hand gently. Her eyes closed and her smile grew.

"Ed."

Thats all I let escape her mouth, I leaned down and kissed her on those pink lips and pushed my body up against hers. Her hands moved up into my hair.

She smiled through her kiss and I let out a little laugh.

She let her lips part and our tounges moved together. I moaned a bit and I moved my hands down to her waist and kissed her jaw down onto her kneck.

Her back lifted a bit and I began to pull at her shirt.

"Ed."

She became stiff and I looked up at her.

"What is it Leylah?"

"It's... just... A bit, uh....ugly underneath there."

I leaned in and whispered in her ear, "You are more beautiful to me. I promise."

With this she put her hands on my face and pushed her lips against mine. I finally lifted her shirt off and I felt her stiffen a bit again, but I just assumed from the fact that she had never experienced this before.

"It's ok, I'll be as gentle as I can Ley." I smiled and moved my hands back to her hips. As I moved up a bit, I felt something on her skin that I haven't ever felt before. There were lines and bumps and rough spots of skin everywhere. I let out lips separate and I finally saw what she was talking about.

Almost all of her arms, chest, stomach, and hips were pink and torn with scars. She tried to cover herself immediately after I stopped all of my movement and stared. I know that I shouldn't have, but I couldn't help but sit in shock at what I was seeing.

This was a whole new level to the Leylah that I was growing to know. I knew that her mind was deep and dark, but I had no idea...

She found my comforter and covered herself in it immediately.

Within seconds, she was completely covered and I could feel her shaking and I could hear a tired sob from underneath.

I knew that I had lead her to this and I regretted my actions immediately.

"Oh no, Leylah I'm sorry!" I tried to pull up the covers and reveal her face, but she pulled away.

"NO ED! I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE ME ANYMORE!"

I heard her continue to cry. I lifted the covers off of her, and I knew that she didn't want to fight me on this.

I sat down next to her and pulled up her whole body and helped her lay slightly across my lap.

She balled herself up and wrapped her arms around herself in shame.

I pulled them away and got another look at the surprising tears on her skin.

I sat her up and wrapped my arms around her from behind. My hand found her arms and I didn't stop rubbing them with my thumbs until she stopped shaking.

"Ed, I'm so sorry."

"No Leylah don't say that now."

"I am so weak and I've ruined myself. My body is disqusting and I'm sorry that you had to find out this way. I'm such a disappointment."

Everything clicked now. She never rolled up her sleeves even when we went for walks a few days ago in the damp summer air. The other night, I offered her one of my shirts and boxers and she refused and changed the subject quickly. She wouldn't even let me rub her arms under her sleeves when I tried to sing her to sleep. Were these all over? How could I have missed this? I made her think that they were ugly and turned me off. No, this can't happen.

"Leylah. The rips and scars in your skin only show what you've been through. I would never just toss you aside because of your rough past. If that was the case, we wouldn't even know each other. I don't regret the decision that I made to bring you home that day and I'm even happier with that decision now. You are more beautiful than you will ever know, and I need you to try to see what I do."

I layed her down and I followed shortly after. Pulling her into my chest, I turned her towards me, her eyes swollen from tears, and I wiped them away.

"You are the closest thing to perfect that could have been created. You just have different ways of handling the issues in life than others do. But I have to tell you love..."

I pulled her arm in and pressed my lips against a few of the raised lines on her skin and moved to many around them.

I whispered in her ear, "They only make me happier to have found you."

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I'm sorry for the content of the chapter and how abrupt it was but it is crucial to the plot. I have exams tomorrow and I'm nervous, especially now that I spent almost an hour or more doing this instead of studying. I really hate school and wish I could just write all of the time! Comment, vote, follow, and enjoy! I'll add soon. Stay beautiful x :)