Duplicate {Severus Snape}

Chapter Twelve: One Boy, and Three Bullies

Cassie's POV

I put down my book, setting it beside me as I stared off at the lake in front of me. At this point I was unsure how many books I could finish before it would tire me, but I had no found a number yet. The Black Lake was still so beautiful to me, and all it carried were memories that filled me with joy. From studying till the sun went down, to Godfather and I having conversations until we ran out of breath, to even writing Sirius when he was still free and innocent.

I use to remember writing him asking for new books, and that I wished that he not send them via owl, but bring them to me so I could see a familiar face. Every letter I would always get back would read something different but he would always say, "I dont go to the mountain, the mountain comes to me,". At the time I use to laugh because he knew as a first year I wasnt allowed to leave, but now it isnt even remotely funny, because in the end, the mountain never moved.

I wish I could write him now, but imagine those letters, especially if I ever mentioned Severus, he would be here rather fast in all honestly. I lightly chuckled to myself, still holding on to the thought that he was good, healthy, and maybe even safe. Yet still in the back of my mind I knew he wasnt, especially not with his many attacks and sightings.

"Deep in thought are we?"

I looked up to find Lupin staring at me with a slight smile. I stood to my feet, grabbing my book, before turning back to stare at him.

"Not at all," I said plainly.

"I saw you on my way to my office, and I felt it was only right to tell you that I am happy to see you stayed,"

I lightly smiled, looking away from him to try and catch any source of restraint. I looked back to him and nodded not wanting to start any sort of argument with him especially after what Godfather told me the other day.

"I stayed for myself, Remus,"

He nodded to my answer but still the smile on his face never left, as if he had wun. I suppose he had but I didnt like that feeling either, as if I had lost something, but I suppose I had.

"Cassie, I saw him leave the Great Hall that night, and I could only guess since both of you have not been apart since that he ended up in your chambers,"

My face hardened as he said those words. As if I had many men in my room, that Severus was just that one that night, but instead I said nothing. I waited for him to continue but he said nothing else. I moved away to walk past him, but his hand stopped me instantly.

"Dumbledore said you will now be joining me in Defense Against the Dark Arts," he asked, watching as I nodded to his question.

"I am obviously not happy about being in the cursed position, but Professor Sheen is in Muggle Studies, and I am in no hurry to take that position back,"

Lupin laughed to my answer before nodding to my words. Everything went quiet again. I watched as he looked away from me to the Black Lake, staring as if he was remembering memories like I was. I could tell he missed his best friend, I mean that day he truly lost everyone. I just could not and would not put myself in the position he did. He blamed Sirius, and now that he knows he is innocent, he is trying to make it up, if he doesnt prove his innocence, he will break. I can feel it, and I did not want to be responsible for picking up another person, but for him, I probably would.

I hated how our relationship was at the moment, and even though it may be partially my fault, I know he would still do anything for me, and I the same. He was apart of my family, and I needed to start showing it.

"I havent gotten any closer to finding him then I was when you stopped," he said turning back to me.

"Remus, if he wants to be found he will give us something. He is mischievous, and brilliant. I am sure that right now his only worry is Harry, and until he gets what he wants, he doesnt want to be found," I said reaching my hand over to comfort him, "I love him and I want nothing more than to be with him right now, but I am tired of him bringing and pulling me down with him,"