~IF YOU HAVEN'T FINISHED HXH DOENT READ THIS ONESHOT INCLUDES A MAJOR SPOILER}
~ warning: features self harm, depression, anxiety~
~ the setting is when Gon is in the hospital dead ( before Alluka healed him)~
3rd person p.o.v
Killua's tears spilled out as he walked down the almost completely dark hallway. It was just him and his thoughts. He was such a coward. So pathetic.
Nobody liked him. Except for Gon. How could Killua let him go. He couldn't leave him. If Gon's dead then so am I, he decided.
Suddenly a dagger appeared in the air, and without even thinking how something could appear like that in thin air, Killua grabbed it.
He started to slit his wrist, starting to go lightly, getting deeper with each cut. Killua grimaced when his wrist had started to significantly bleed out, moving a little higher. This is nothing compared to what I have felt about Gon, all those times that I wanted to say I love him, or show some sort of physical affection, and I never got to. I missed my chance, all because I was scared. So very, pathetically scared.
I started going deeper, eventually halfway through my arm. ( A/N he's a nen user so it takes slower to kill himself) He was eventually going to bleed out, so with the swiftest move of his left hand, his right hand was gone. " I'm sorry Gon, I really am," he whispers ," I know you would be disappointed, but without living is pointless, I hope you understand that."
Looking at his chopped off limb on the ground. Killua sat down, feeling faint, and just about as he was going to pass out, he heard something shaking him. He opened his eyes and saw Alluka.
"Killua, wake up."
~this one was pretty short but I hope it was ok~
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{KilluGon OneShots}
Fanfictionso uhm I've been reading a lot of KilluGon OneShots and I wanted to make one of my own and thats basically it lol enjoy and feel free to give advice :) I only do angst and fluff :) This oneshots book will consist of 25 parts + an authors note at the...
