Glimpse of my Imagination

Love is my Cure

Love is My Cure

I can still vividly remember the day when I decided to end our relationship. Letting him go hurts so much but that's the only way I knew. Seeing him cry and beg for me to stay feels like a knife stabbing my chest. I have a heart disease and I don't even know how much longer would I live. I don't want to be a burden to him so I'm setting him free as early as now. I want him to be happy even without me. I closed my eyes and reminisced that night. The pain still lives with me but I have no regret.

"Amaris, please, let's fix this. Tell me what I need to do, please. Please don't leave me," he said while his tears won't stop from falling.

"Jax, stop it. I've already decided, please just let me go. I don't love you anymore and I'm tired," I replied coldly, avoiding his eyes.

"No, please. I love you so much. I will do everything... just ...just stay with me, please." He begged for me and he's almost kneeling on the ground.

"Stop it, Jax! I told you that we're done! Stop chasing after me. Why don't you chase your dream instead?" I spat at him, preventing my tears from shedding.

"But how? You are my dream, Amaris! You've always been my dream! You're the only one I want to be with for life!" He paused to wipe his tears. "H-How could you give up so easily? Don't you love me?" he said in between his sobs.

I didn't want to answer him anymore. I can't because I love him so much. I left him there without saying a word. I went out the room with a heavy heart.

I love you Jax, I'm sorry that I had to do this. This is the only way I know so you won't have to witness my health deteriorating.

Time flies and I've undergone a heart surgery and therapies for the last one year. The doctor said that my operation wasn't as successful as expected so I still need to undergo some medications.

Today is my schedule for my check-up so I'm here at the hospital room waiting for my doctor. The door swang open and my jaw almost dropped the moment I saw who entered the room.

"Ms. Ledesma, I will be in charge for your check up for today. Dr. Manalo has an emergency," Jax said casually as he walks toward the table.

How funny that a year after our break up, we met again but as him as my doctor. He looked more mature now but his eyes looks so tired.

The check up went fast and I quickly walked out the room. I was about to call a taxi when I suddenly heard him calling my name.

I looked back only to see him with bloodshot eyes. "J-Jax—I mean Dr. Ramirez. Sorry." I lowered my gaze.

"Why, Amaris? Why didn't you tell me about this? Who am I to you that you hide it from me, huh?" Pain was evident in his voice.

I was shocked with his question. I thought he's still mad at me for breaking up. "It's not like that." I took a deep breath. "I don't want to be a burden to you so I decided to set you free. Remember that night? That's the time I knew about my condition. I know you will grow more if you won't stay with me... having this disease," I replied, plastering a small smile.

"N-No, that's not true! I may have succeeded as a doctor but my life would have been better with you by my side," he replied, almost a whisper. " I love you so much, Amaris. If only I knew about your situation, I will never let you go. I'm s-sorry, Amaris." His voice broke and tears started falling.

"You don't have to, Jax. It's my fault. Sorry for leaving you but I think I made a right decision. You are now a successful doctor like what you've really wanted. I'm very proud of what you've become."

Weeks after we met again, my health got better and better each day. We're back together and he became an effective doctor and boyfriend at the same time. I missed the way he cares about me.

"Hey love, why are you crying? Shush" He cupped my face and leaned to kiss my forehead.

I smiled. "I just can't believe that we still ended up together and I fully recovered from my heart disease," I replied before burying my face on his chest.

"I love you so much, my love. You are the best gift I've received." He kissed me and the little bump on my tummy.

"Mommy, Daddy!"

We broke our hugs when our daughter ran toward sus. He carried our daughter.

"Uhm, can we go to the park?" she said then pouted.

I laughed a little. "You're so cute sweetie," I said as I pinch her cheeks lightly.

"Yes, Luna, we will go to the park but only daddy can play with you, okay? Your mommy will only be watching us so the baby won't get tired."

"Okay, daddy!" Luna answered and hugged her dad even more.

I'm so blessed that my health got back to normal and I have my husband to support me throughout.
And now, I have my angels that added joy to my life.

Love really conquers all. His love cured me. His love made me grow. He's indeed my strength.