It's All Going to Be Okay

10

"You're not eating? This is your favorite, what's wrong?" Arizona asked. I looked over at Lexie and Amelia as I took a big breath and took a bite of the burrito. It felt good. I honestly missed eating food but was too distraught to eat anything... the messages were like clockwork. I would look and see the time, and not have the energy to cook or eat anything and go back to sleep. Amelia smiled as she saw me eating the burrito. I finished the burrito as I got up, and got a glass of water, washing everything down.

"Do you want another one?" Lexie asked. I shook my head no, putting the dish in the sink, and I went and sat on the couch, as I stared out the window, watching the rain bounce off the cars.

"What's going on?" Arizona asked. Amelia looked at Lexie as she nodded.

"She needs to know Amelia, I don't know everything, but what I do know, we can't hide this," Lexie said. Amelia could see Arizona getting agitated and nodded in agreement.

"This is the first thing your sister has eaten in 2 weeks," she whispered so I couldn't hear everything they were saying. I was irritated, but I couldn't stop it anymore, so I decided to zone out.

"What do you mean? She's been here with us for dinner the last week? She's eaten all of that food?" Arizona asked. Amelia shook her head.

"She threw it out when we were all upstairs, did you notice that she was the last one each time?" Lexie asked. Arizona looked over at me, and then looked between them.

"What's going on with my sister? Please just tell me, you're freaking me out," Arizona said, raising her voice. I looked over at them and felt angry and couldn't take it anymore. I got up, walking over to them as Lexie noticed me standing there.

"I've been starving myself. I've learned that no one loves me, that no one wants me here, and that I'm just an ugly piece of trash that you guys all just fake to be happy around. No one wants me," I cried.

"Gracie?" Arizona said. "What are you talking about? What is this nonsense? You are so loved, and you're a joy to be around. I'm not faking anything. Amelia, what's going on?" Arizona asked.

"Amelia, you promised," I cried. 

"Gracie this needs to end. This isn't okay," Amelia said. "Arizona, you need to read these messages...this is why Gracie has been so distant," Amelia said, handing Arizona my phone. I crumbled to the floor, crying in my hands. Amelia got up, coming to wrap her arms around me, as I fought for a few minutes before giving up. "We love you so much, we want only the best for you. I am so sorry that this has been happening...I love you," Amelia said, kissing my head.

"I'm not someone that should be loved," I cried.

"But you are, you are so loved," Amelia said, lifting my chin up. I covered my eyes, as Amelia leaned her head to mine.

"Gracie?" Arizona cried, sitting on the other side of me. Lexie was now reading the messages, as I covered my eyes. "Hey, I'm right here, everything she said is a lie..." Arizona said.