in my head

thoughts on abortion

i would firstly like to begin by saying that i am happy i'm alive. i love being alive, and therefore i am happy that my mother didn't abort me.

however, the only reason i am happy to be alive is because of the love of my family, the privilege of my life, my continued education. if i were not wanted, but not aborted, would i really have been raised this well? would i still want to be alive?

who knows

obviously, one can't look into the future and ask a grown fetus if they'd rather have not been born. but... a baby raised without enough love, without enough resources... is that really better than not being born?

do you remember being in the womb? i don't. if my mother had not wanted me, was not able to take care of me, or simply couldn't carry me to term because of her health, i—as a ghost i suppose—absolutely would have understood. or maybe i wouldn't have, because i didn't really know her yet. i wouldn't have wanted to know her if she did not love me. as of now, i love her very much, and in that moment of her decision to ruin her life and probably mine, she had much more potential than i did.

"what if that baby grows up and cures cancer???"

well. i seriously doubt they will, considering they probably don't have the mental or physical resources to raise this child. but also... what if that mom went back to school and cured cancer? she's already alive. she has far more life than that tiny tiny fetus. is she not important to you too?

when i see people avidly fighting for abortion bans under that flags of "pro-life" and "moral" and "gods work", i think,

what about all of the other people in this world?

all of the other people in this world, who have so much more life and potential than those nearly nonexistent beings? why not devote just as much energy to stopping other pointless death around the world? do work for health and education in third world countries, be an activist for stopping conflict in afghanistan or palestine, or go find the cure for cancer? maybe fight for climate change? or deforestation? why do you care about that tiny clump when you set up mouse traps in your home?

because their lives don't matter. they are small.

THAT FETUS IS SMALLER.

That fetus has less life, less consciousness, less emotion than that mouse. That fetus can't even live on its own, so why does it matter?

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i understand the moral aspect of actively killing any life versus passively watching the planet burn. it feels worse to the heart. but ultimately, i care much more about myself than some tiny thing that's the size of the ant i squished this morning.

i am not a religious person. i have the utmost respect for religious and spiritual people; your body, mind, and soul are yours and who you choose to share them with, just as i am mine and mine alone.

that fetus would be a part of me.

i don't see how killing it is much worse than exfoliating too harshly and scraping off some epithelial tissue. or eating bad food and hurting my gut flora. or smoking and giving myself lung cancer. should i be punished for that?

i dunno

that fetus is a part of her. not you

and frankly, it is only her business what to do with her reproductive organs, her spirit, her heart, her stomach, her brain, and her hands.

just let it be