The Story Beneath The Shirt

Meeting a T Doctor

The weekend blew by fast as usual. I had all my homework done before nathan was home saturday. He had started to think i wasn't doing my homework because he never saw me with it. I showed him all my work and he accepted it. I explained that i didn't while he was at work so that if we wanted to do anything when he got home it would already be done; He felt bad because we hadn't done much this last week but i explained that i didn't mind. I knew he was trying to provide for us and keep this home as a gratitude for his dead friend.

He took me to school after our convo. As usual my dress wear was the same as usual with the band shirts and ripped jeans and i had a shoe for each outfit it seemed like. All of the outfits where designated to a shoe. In all my shoes consisted of at least 10 outfits per shoe. I only had 7 shoes but i had a lot of outfits. I kept them organized by coat hanger. I had blood red,bright orange,sunflower yellow, grass green, sky blue, purple (almost black), and chocolate brown hangers. I made sure to get those exact colors so nothing would be mixed up for a different one. And i colored coded them by using sharpie non washable markers on the tags. I put a bright big dot on the tags. That way they stayed in the sections i wanted them to. Red through green was band outfits and then blue through brown had more "normal" clothes. I had hanger that was a wire. It had my tux on it incase i needed to be in a more formal clothing.

After dropping me off i had my usual day of school boring classes with shitty places to eat. I ended up eating in the school yard at the football field. A class was outside playing a game of flag football tho so i got to watch that as my lunch entertainment. When i heard my lunch bell ring out i headed back. I stopped by the trash throwing away the trash i had but keeping the bowl and spoon nathan had packed as he wanted me to return them back to the house since it was my normal lunch pack items. I took the last swig of my first monster throwing it away and grabbing my second one from my lunch pack. I started having nathan pack me 2 on monday and thursdays. He said i couldnt have 2 daily as it was bad for my heart but he allowed it on those 2 days to get me through them as it was the most tiring. Other days he would add a soda or water if i choose that day. I got to pretty much pick out my lunch now. All i had to do was write it down on a sticky note and stick it to the fridge for the chef to start the next morning. Most of the time i choose soups because i enjoyed soups, but occasionally i would put cheese burgers or steak. He would take small bowls with condiments for it if i choose other things.

When nathan picked me up at the end of the day we ran home and nathan switched from his business suit to more casual out and about outfit. He said when we went to this meeting he didn't want everyone thinking he was some hot shot who just wanted to get free stuff or try to sell them anything. He grabbed his keys again and a bottle of water.

"Do you need anything before we head that way?" he said from the kitchen as i fixed my hair in the hallway mirror.

"Just a monster and a orange." I replied walking into the kitchen. He looked at me and asked if i was ever going to go with a different hair style. I grunted as my way of telling him not a chance.

he chuckled tossing me a orange and grabbing my monster. I grabbed his keys and walked out.

"your not driving if that's what your thinking, i'm not killing my car!" he yelled after me. I shut the door leaving him in the kitchen sitting in the passenger seat. i turned the ignition just enough to play the radio/CD player; i turned on my CD Letting 'Alone in a Room' by Asking Alexandria play out as i waited for nathan's slow ass to get out here.

When he finally emerged he had one of the big yellow envelope things, my monster, his drink, and his hair was neatly styled but not in a obsessive manner. As he sat down he handed me my drink set his in one of the cup holders and placed the rest in the back. I looked back at the envelope and in a little sticker that looked like it was meant for mailing it said my real birth name and a bunch of other little things on it. I assumed the court sent it as my files so nathan would have all my stuff since im in his custody.

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We had finally met with the T doctor. We set up an appointment to come back and get things started, all we did was meet him, explain if i wanted to be FTM Or MTF, and then explained the general gist of what normally the schedule will be. The surgery wasn't planned for another year or 2 but just knowing it was coming gave me hope.

The drive home was mostly nathan going through it all again with me. I already knew that but i let him rant till his heart's content. Once home he took a paperclip and clipped everything together that he doctors gave us and put it in my yellow envelope till it was needed again.

Heading into the kitchen i grabbed my dinner which was a taco bowl. I added all my toppings i wanted and then went into the living room. As nathan joined me i turned grey's anatomy on and we ate our food.