Trigger warning: Self harm
Tyla's POV
I put the food in the car before it burns my fingers and drive to Tae's house.
"And when he done I be like yo how'd it taste,YO HOW'D IT TASTE!, I don't really want no friends," I sing to Fefe by The queen Nicki and that guy.
I get to her house then take out the food, lock my car and go to her door. I knock then I remember she gave me a key. I unlock the door and walk in.
"Honey I'm home," I say and its quiet.
Maybe she's sleeping. I put the food on the counter and remove my shoes.
I find her slippers and put them on. I knock on her bedroom door and I hear nothing so I open. She's not on the bed but there's a light on so I go to her bathroom. I open the door.
Tae's leg is covered in blood and she's holding a knife about to cut another part of her leg.
"Tae baby, don't do it okay," I say walking to her.
She looks up at me and looks sad. I take the knife from her and put it in the sink.
"Come sit here baby," I say holding her arm to help her sit by the sink.
I take a cloth and clean her leg. I rinse it off then wipe her leg. I go to the kitchen and get the first aid, I take out some creams and antiseptic.
I go back to the bathroom and she's still sitting there quietly. I put the antiseptic on cotton wool.
"This is gonna hurt okay, hold my shoulder if it becomes too much okay," I say and she nods softly.
I put it on her cuts and she doesn't even flinch. She's better than me I would've been crying. I let it dry then put on the creams.
I go put everything back then come back and sit in front of her. I put my arms around her waist.
"I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore," she says after a while.
" Who would want a self harming girlfriend," she says and I look at her.
"Baby look at me," I say holding her chin.
"I still want to be with you, this doesn't change how I feel about you," I say looking her in the eyes.
She goes quiet and I hug her and we just sit in silence.
"But why," she asks.
"Because I love you," I say and she blushes.
"Your blush is so cute," I say kissing her.
"Stop," she says smiling.
She goes sad again. I lay my head on her thigh and she plays with my hair.
"You wanna know what I think about cutting?," I say and she hums.
"I think it's like drugs," I say and she laughs.
"Why drugs?,".
"Because it's something you do to forget right? Like to run away from something mentally, just like smoking, when people smoke they're happy and when you're happy you forget about things that make you sad, is that what it's like?," I ask looking at her.
"Yeah something like that," she says looking at the floor ,"it's more like a pain that you can control because you can't control the pain inside, or if you're numb and can't feel anything you find anything to make you feel something, you get me?," she says.
"Yeah I understand,".
"Let's go eat," I say after a while and walk out of the bathroom with her following behind me. "Baby,". "Hmm," I look at her. "I love you," she says and I smile. "I love you too," I say putting on some music.
"This is too hype put some RnB," Tae says after 10 seconds listening to Act up.
I play Kehlani's album. I tell her to sit down and I warm the food while dancing. I set the table up and dish the food when it's done warming up. Sitting next to Tae I scarf down my food because I'm hungrier than a mf.
When I'm done I see that she's eating slow as hell. I sit and watch two episodes of SpongeBob before she's done. I go wash the dishes when she's done and come back and sit on her lap. She puts her arms around my waist instinctively. I've always liked that but she doesn't have to know that.
"You wanna watch a movie?," I ask and she looks zoned out but zones back in. "No," she says. I hum and lay my head on her shoulder.
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Tae's POV
I look down at my baby's face and notice that she's sleeping. I rub her back and take a moment to appreciate this silence. Of course I love hearing her talk but having her in silence hits different.
I pick her up and go lay her down on my bed, I remove her shoes. I walk to the door and as I'm about to close it I hear "Baby,". I go back in wondering if maybe she's sleep talking again. She's half awake.
"Baby come sleep with me," she says in a sleepy voice.
"I'm coming bae," I say and go lock my door and switch off all the lights because these bills are expensive. I get into bed and she sleeps on me. I play with her hair and since I'm not tired I scroll through my Instagram for a while. I answer Bree's FaceTime.
"Dawg don't shout my baby's asleep," I say to her.
"Guess what bro," she says looking excited.
"You got a new strain of weed?," I say playing with her.
"No nigga, guess again," she says.
"A girlfriend?," I say now genuinely curious.
"No Dawg I got a new car!!!!!, I'm making big boss moves don't play with me," she says dusting off her shoulder.
"As you mf should bestie, stunting on all the niggas and the hoes," I say in my girliest voice and we laugh.
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It's been a week 😪.
It's safe to say I'm exhausted.
Lemme fawk you off this motherfawking Perc 🙃.
~D🖤✨
YOU ARE READING
Leave me alone.
Fantasy"If you like me as you say you do, why would you hurt me?," I said looking in her eyes. She looked defeated. "I don't know," she said. I sighed and walked back home.
