When I laid eyes on her (girlxgirl)

13. Don't do this to yourself

Sammie's POV

The words just kept replaying in my head 'Sammie what are we'. What did I exactly want? Was I ready to make this commitment? Was I even ready to settle down for God knows how long?

"Just say yes you know you love her. I do but do I love her like that? Yes of course. I got this"

I take a deep breath my lips in a straight line slowly turning into a smile.

"Do you want me to be honest Nichole?"

"Yes I want you to be honest." Curiosity playing in her eyes not knowing what to expect.

"Nichole will you be my girlfriend?" I smile big just looking at her waiting for her answer

"Oh my god are you serious?! You really wanna be with me more than friends?!" Her eyes sparkling with pure happiness.

"Yes I'm being serious or I wouldn't have asked you silly!" I laugh shaking my head.

"Yes I'll be your girlfriend!" Her lips crashed in mine with nothing but passion. I deepened the kiss my body tingling as the Sparks fly between us.

She climbs on top of me straddling and I groan in pain. She quickly jumps off me her hand covering her mouth.

"Oh my god babe I'm so sorry, I wasn't thinking I was just so in the moment." Her eyes starting to water.

I reach out to her "it's okay come here I know you didn't mean it"

She climbs back in bed giving me a kiss and I smile against her lips. "Goodnight babe"

She smiles laying her head on my shoulder "goodnight Sammie."

With that we drifted off to sleep.

Nichole's POV

It's been about 3 weeks since the accident with Sammie, she's doing much better. Since we started dating things have been a little weird with Sammie. She's slowly starting to work out again but not very much. I just wish she would wait till she is fully recovered, but nooooo she's so stubborn.

It was Monday morning and we just pulled up to school. I got out of the car and I waited for Sammie. It was taking her a bit so I open the door.

"Babe come on what are you doing?" I look at her confused as she searched the car mumbling to herself.

"Nothing just go in ill meet you then" she didn't look at me once as she still searched.

I started walking wondering what she is looking for. She's been really distant lately. I don't know if it's her or me, hell I don't know at all what's up.

Sammie's POV

Dammit where are my fucking pills I was getting really pissed not being able to find them. I need them!

I got out of the car going to the trunk looking in the little piece of carpet I cut out.

AH HA! There they are. Oh I missed you. I look around quickly taking the percs out taking four of them.

After my accident I've became very dependent on them. What can I say they make me feel so much better. I'm able to handle everything. The pain, the depression, the hurt, the anger. It all relaxes me. I don't have a care in the world, I can focus on what I'm doing....well sometimes that is.

I walk into the school meeting up with Nichole and my other friends. Trying to act as normal as possible I walk over kissing Nichole, pulling her close by her hips.

With ease she starts kissing back moaning softly into the kiss as she giggles.

"Babe what has gotten into you?"

I cock my head raising an eyebrow at her.

"Nothing why? I just wanted a kiss that's all."

She shakes her head and just smiles at me.

"Damn she's on to you. Yeah no fucking shit." I just smile and kiss her head grabbing her hand walking to first period.

Half way through the day I had History with Nichole. I was starting to sober up but I was really tired now that I'm coming home down off my high.

I walk in class, taking my seat right next to Nichole. I kiss her cheek and I lay my head down on the desk.

I feel poking in my side, damn that's getting really annoy they need to stop. The poking continues, I jump up screaming "STOP FUCKING POKING DAMN!"

I look down to see Nichole with fear in her eyes. Shit she was the one poking me, probably to get my attention.

I go to touch her arm "I'm sorry-". She cut me off backing away from me tears threatening to fall. "Don't touch me Sammie".

She turned away and walked to a seat on the other side of the class room.

"Now look what you've done. Shut it I don't wanna hear about it." I sit back down going off into my own little world from the high.

Nichole's POV

I can't believe she just snapped on me like that. After all this time of being with her, this is the first she has ever done that. This isn't like her and I don't know what has gotten into her. I'm afraid to be near her now, what if she lashes out worse next time. No no that's not a thought I want to be thinking about right now.

The rest of the day goes by fairly slow without talking to Sammie. She hasn't said as much as boo to me.

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A/N
Hey guys sorry it's been soooo long since I updated. It's a little hard to write a love story while going thru a tough break up after being with my ex for three years. Here to find out I got catfished for the whole three years, so it's been pretty tough so that's why I haven't updated in awhile. But here's a chapter and I know it's shitty but it's just a filler. I'll update soon. But I need help with this guys don't be afraid to give me ideas! Thanks guys!