When I laid eyes on her (girlxgirl)

14. Want the old you back

Nichole's POV

It's been two weeks since the incident at school with Sammie, she's been really distant since then. It's been hard trying to get through to her and I know she is still taking them damn pills.

I try and talk to her about getting help but she just blows it off and changes the subject. Her mom is no help when she's always away.

I'm sitting in the living room watching Tv when Sammie comes walking in the house. The door slams shut, yup this isn't good. I turn my attention to the door way when she walks in and leans against the wall just looking at me.

I'm afraid to move or even say anything, I can smell the alcohol on her from ten feet away. She starts walking to me and I turn my attention back to the tv.

She straddles my legs kissing on my neck and I try and push her away but she's to strong for me. My mind starts going crazy not know what she's going to do to me.

Her hands make their way to my pants starting to unbutton them. No no no no! This can't be happening right now! I start beating on her chest to stop, but she doesn't stop.

The flash backs start in my mind of what my so called father did to me. I couldn't stop my self before the words left my mouth. "Dad stop!" My hand connects with Sammie's face and she falls back off me landing on on the floor.

My hand covers my mouth as tears stream down my face. She just looks up at me stunned. She opens her mouth to speak, but I stop her. "Sammie don't, leave me alone". She closes her mouth, gets up stumbling up the stairs and I hear one of the doors shut.

I just sit there with my head in my hands. What just happened, what has gotten into her. She has never tried this before. I know she is broken, and hurt because of what happened. But there is no reason for her to treat me like this. I just want the old her back.

I walk upstairs to check on Sammie. I open the bedroom door slowly, she's not in there. I walk to the bathroom and its looked. I knock quietly, "Sammie baby open the door". Nothing. I knock again, once again nothing. I pound on the door yelling, Sammie open this damn door now. Still nothing but silence. I kick down the door, she's sitting on the bathroom floor.. Unconscious, with an empty bottle of pills in her hand.

I scream and I run to her tapping her face. "Sammie wake up baby please wake up! Don't do this to me I need you!"

I pull out my phone calling 911.

Sammie's POV (a few minutes earlier)

I can't believe I just that. I almost did what I saved her from. I promised her I would never hurt her and look what I've just done. I've been drinking a lot and the pill popping had gotten worse.

I'm worthless and a terrible person. She doesn't need me around, I'm a mess and there's no fixing myself. I'm to far gone, she can do better than me, so much better.

I look down at the pill bottle in my hand. I look in the mirror "well here goes nothing". I dump a bunch of pills in my hand popping them in my mouth. These should kick in quick seeing I'm already on several different pills. Some Xanax, Percocets, and vicodin, popping some more Percocets on top of drinking should do the job.

I sit down on the floor crying "I'll be there soon dad don't worry. I can't wait to see you. I know you don't want it to be this way but I'll be there soon. I miss your hugs, your jokes, and that cheesy ass smile that was contagious." I take a deep breath feeling my eyes starting to get heavy. "I love you Nichole."

Within minutes my eyes finally close as the darkness overtakes me. This is it, it's over for good.

Nichole's POV

I'm pacing the hallway outside of Sammie's room. We just arrived at the hospital just a few minutes ago and my mind is going wild.

A young looking nurse walks up to me with a sympathetic look in her eyes. She's about mid 20's with long brown hair that's up in a pony tail. She's tan, with bright green eyes. "Can I get you anything?" She says placing her hand on my shoulder. I politely decline, she just nods and walks away.

I was in a daze sitting on the floor leaning against the wall with my knees pulled up to my chest. I heard the words I wish I would have never heard, "we're losing her!"

I jump up trying to run for the door when a nurse steps in grabbing me holding me back as I scream. I start sobbing hard as the nurse just holds onto me tight not letting go.

A few minutes pass and a doctor walks out of her room. "How is she is she going to be okay?! Please tell me she is okay! I can't lose her!"

He looks down at me, he stands a few inches taller than me, greyish hair, and blue eyes. "Yes she is okay, but she is in a coma. We don't know how long this can last, we lost her a few times but we finally got her stable. We did blood work and found three different type of pills in her system, and a high count of alcohol. The only thing is, she is not breathing on her own right now. She is very lucky."

Tears swell in my eyes "can I see her please?" He nods in agreement and walks away. I take a deep breath putting my hand on the handle and I open it slowly. The sound of machines beeping fills my ears as I stare right at my lover.

I shut the door and I walk over pulling a chair beside her bed. I sit down taking her limp hand in mine squeezing lightly.

"I don't know if you can hear but I'm going to talk to you anyway. I'm sorry it got this far. I tried to help you but you just kept pushing me away. It kills me to see you like this. Why didn't you let me help you Sammie." By now tears are streaming down my face.

"This is my fault, if I would have let you have your way with me we wouldn't be here right now. I love you so much my love and I'm sorry I did this to you. I just want the old you back baby."

I just sit there, hoping and praying she will pull out of this soon. I look at her beautiful face stroking the back of her hand with my thumb. I start thinking of the good times we had. The first night I slept in her arms, our first kiss, our first date, and the first time she saved me. Especially the first time I ever laid eyes on her. I will never forget those moments. I WILL get the old Sammie back.
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A/N: hey guys sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I've just been having some trouble on where to go with this story. If you could please let me know what you think so far I would greatly appreciate it. I'm really deciding on whether or not to keep this story up. Thank guys!