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The Wooden Box

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: Cutting, suicide⚠️

Ponyboys P.O.V

I layed in my bed next to my brother, Soda. I could hear him breathing, though his back was turned to me.

Sighing I turn and glance over at the clock. Seeing as it was 4:14 in the morning, I began to get up and walked towards the door.

I head to the bathroom, locking the door as I enter. Pulling up my shirt to show the lines of cuts on my stomach.

Starting into the mirror with an empty look on my face. I bend down and pull the vent off the wall and pull out the small wood box. Opening it and taking out my razor.

I push the razor down against my stomach, feeling the warm liquid as it slips down. I drag the razor across my stomach, The cuts all deep enough to bleed but not enough to damage.

*   *   *

I cut a bit more before cleaning up, showering and heading back to bed. I crawl in and glance at the clock. 6:09, everyone should be waking up soon.

I close my eyes as I feel the bed move. I hear sodas small chuckle before he starts to shake my shoulder, "Wake up pony, you gotta get ready for school." He whispers while running his hand though my hair.

I slowly open my eyes as he begins to crawl out of bed, I though on my purple sleeveless shirt and some black jeans. I head down stairs to see my friends and brothers sitting around eating breakfast.

I walk over while they talk and grab a waffle off the plate before walking back upstairs to grab my bag. I throw the waffle in the trash and bury it under some papers.

I hear the voice in my head begin to talk...

"Wow, your brother spent HIS money on that and you waste it? I mean you shouldn't eat because your fat, but do you really have to be even MORE of a burden on you brothers?"

It laughs at me as I walk out the door. Me, Johnny, Two-bit, and Dally all walk towards the school. Once we arrived me and Johnny went to our classes while Two-bit and Dally went to theirs.

*   *   *

The day was finally over, I felt exhausted as we walked home. I had to deal with these fucking asshole socs who would not leave me alone. THEN I had a math test I forgot about, God I definitely failed that.

I was so happy to be home, I headed straight in and tried to head to my room. But just as I entered the door Two-bit dragged me to the living room with everyone else there.

I was going to head to my room but Dally rapped his arms around my stomach. My heart stopped and my skin went cold, "Aw what, you to cool to hang with us or somethin'?"

Before I could react he picked me up. His arms still holding my around my stomach. The pain that shot through my body as he picked me up was unbelievable. I let out a yelp and started begging him to put me down.

He immediately dropped me. As I hit the floor I cluched my stomach to stop the pain, feeling all eyes on myself, unable to make a sound.

Darrys P.O.V

I watched as my brother crumbled to the ground, grabbing his stomach in pain. I ran over to see what was wrong, "Oh God pony, you ok? What's wrong? Where are you hurt?"