What if it didn't help?
What if it got worse?
What can I tell them
when everyone thinks you got better
When everyone thinks you are healing
But actually everything is back and overwhelming and panicking and you're struggling again and again and again.
What if this new beginning is even worse and I'm slowly falling back into the hole.
What can I do to stop it?
To not get worse?
I'm falling into old habits again
Hiding my feelings
Hiding my pain, my numbness, my anxiety.
I'm telling people I got better, I'm okay now.
But I'm not.
I'm telling people I learned something
but it was more the people I had around me which now aren't.
What if I'm losing myself and no one will notice?
YOU ARE READING
Moonlight
PoetryLate night thoughts are the deepest. You question everything you ever did or will do or would like to do. Just some deep or inspirational thoughts at midnight when I can't sleep :)
