𝐑𝐇𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐎𝐍 - r. lupin

;15 savior complex

december 26th, 1976.
ALEX'S APARTMENT
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"baby, you're a vampire, you want blood and i promised. i'm a bad liar, with a savior complex."

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Rhiannon woke up, feeling the coolness of the bedsheets on her naked skin. Alex noticed she had woken up, and hummed into her neck and held her waist, slowly starting to kiss her neck. Last night they had a few drinks, then went back to his apartment. He played a record of "The Runaways", and the next thing they knew, they were making out to Cherry Bomb.

Rhiannon laughed into the pillow, shifting her position to look at Alex. He had soft dark brown hair and chestnut skin. She softly kissed him, then looked over at the clock to see the time. 8:15. She had completely forgotten that her sister was supposed to pick her up from the bar, and she wasn't supposed to sleep over at another person's house. The funeral started at 8. Her eyes went wide, "What's wrong?" Alex asked her.

"Fuck, Fuck, FUCK!" She yelled, climbing out of the bed and entering his bathroom, trying to put on her clothes as quickly as she could. She looked at herself in the mirror, her eyeshadow was smeared a bit but looked alright.

"Rhiannon, are you alright your acting stra-"

"I'm fine." She lied, trying not to cry. God forbid she would add another person to her list. "I just, I have, I have to go." Her voice broke, and she turned away from him right before a tear fell down her cheek.

"Well, I could drive you, where do you need to go?"

Rhiannon wiped her face and then turned around to look at him, "I can handle it.", She pulled her shirt on then tied her shoes, and left his room, slamming the door and then leaving the apartment through the front door.

She stood outside in the cold and disapparated to the church. She wasn't religious, and hadn't had a family Christmas since she was 8, so she didn't understand why the Funeral was at a church. She walked inside, going into the room and sitting in the back row so no one could see her.

"Oscar was an amazing father and loved everyone sitting in this room right now. His battle with addiction just got the best of him." Rhiannon's mom's voice started to break, "I hope that he's in a better place." then she started to sob, Jacob holding her and rubbing her back. Xandra then stood up and started to talk.

"I remember when I was twelve and got my first period my dad helped me cover up the stain on my shorts. He loved helping people. He took care of everyone around him, but not himself." This made Rhiannon start to cry, hit tears falling down her cheek.

She wished that things could've been different. She sniffed, feeling someone tap her shoulder. Remus? He was sitting down next to her, sympathetically smiling at her, "Remus? How did you get here?"

"Disapparated." He slowly moved his hand to lock with hers, and she looked up at him with wet and puffy eyes. She hugged him and he held her as she cried into his shoulders.

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After the burial, Xandra drove both Remus and Rhiannon back to her place. Xandra had a guest room that they could stay in and Remus was currently using the shower, leaving Rhiannon and Xandra alone.

"Where the fuck were you? Mom is furious!"

"Xandra, please don't yell at me right now-"

"I don't care. If you're gonna' skip your father's funeral to get drunk and fuck someone, then there's going to be consequences."

"Was he really my dad? Hitting me, yelling at me, overdosing and leaving me to find him twice, and forgetting about me." Rhiannon yelled back, hoping that Remus couldn't hear. Xandra just stood there, watching all of her emotions come out at once. Rhiannon started to sob, running her hands through her hair and falling to the floor. "I couldn't even help him."

Xandra bent down with her, furrowing her eyebrows. "Why do you want to help? It's too much for you."

"Maybe I'm just too much." This made her think of what Remus told her when they were in the laundry room. You talk a lot, and you're really outgoing sometimes that it's too much to handle. She never took much thought to it but, maybe she was too much.

They both paused since Remus left the bathroom to go to the guest room. Rhiannon was breathing heavily, trying to think of things that calmed her down. Xandra decided to just hug her while she cried. Rhiannon didn't know why she was so sad all the time, maybe she was just made that way. People aren't built happy.

After Rhiannon calmed down, Xandra left to take a shower. Remus came out of the guest room to see Rhiannon sulking over the kitchen counter while smoking and watching The Sound Of Music. He was about to say something but she interrupted him, "Why did you come here?"

"What?"

"Why did you come here with me? There has to be a reason."

"I don't know, I wanted to be a good person."

"So I'm charity work?" Rhiannon put out the cigarette at glared at him.

"No, I just- I wanted to make sure that you're okay."
Rhiannon didn't reply and just folded her hands together. "Are you?" Remus questions. Rhiannon looked down to the floor, eyes watering. She nodded no as tears streamed down her face. Remus took his hand and caressed her face, making her look up at him. "You know you can tell me anything?"

If that's so, over the summer I had a sex dream about you that made me realize I had a crush on you, but I can't say anything about it because it'll ruin our friendship, and I had sex with a boy I've only met once just so I could get you off my mind. Oh, and my dad overdosed and passes away and I think it's all my fault. All of this is my fault.

That ended up coming out as "I know.". Their faces were close together, and she felt herself grow hotter and hotter. His hand was still on her face and it slowly started to wrap around the back of her head, pulling her in. "Is this okay?" Remus breathed out and Rhiannon hummed in approval as his lips got closer and closer to hers.

A door opened and the pair immediately jumped apart, not even had locked lips yet. It was Xandra moving from the shower to her bedroom, they both looked at each other with wide eyes. "I'm gonna make coffee and finish the movie." She sniffed and wiped her face, leaving him there alone.