Dancing your way into my heart | Namseok Texting/ Instagram

°PART THIRTY FOUR°

On the day of the competition (Namjoon's P.O.V)

"Okay so we're performing last" Hobi said, holding the stage pass in his hands.

I could feel my sanity tick away with time. I was getting to an unhealthy level of nervousness. I shouldn't be doing this right now. We're like thirty mins away from our performance. THE performance for which we've been draining our energies and practising our bones off for weeks. I shouldn't be freaking out. I should think of the boys. They've put so much effort into this, it shouldn't go to waste because of me.

I could feel my cheeks burning up. My eyes were starting to get watery. I looked around to distract myself with something, but I accidentally made eye contact with Hobi. He seemed to sense my emotions cuz I saw his excited smile fade away and his expression turned into a concerned one. He walked towards me, grabbed my hand and walked to the make-up room. Luckily there was no one in there. He closed the door. He made me sit down on a chair and stood in front of me.

"What's wrong Joon?"

"I can't do this Hobi. I'm so scared" I said. My eyes were pouring down now. "I'm gonna mess up. I'm gonna be the reason our group loses this competition. I can't risk it. I'm so scared"

He held my face with both his hands. He seemed kind of disappointed.

"Joon. I told you how good you are doing, didnt I? You were doing great during practise. You just have to do the same here. Think it's just another day of practise. You're not alone Joon, we're all with you in this. All seven of us."

"That's the problem Hobi. I can't cause embarrassment to all seven of us. I can't do that."

"So what? You're gonna give up? Without trying? And you think that wont make us embarrassed? Honestly I think you'd disappoint me more if you give up before even trying. The amount of time and energy we spent for this becomes nothing. Is that what you want?"

He had a point.

"Look Joon. Not all of us are professionals, but we're trying our best. I know I've had more experience in dancing than you, but that doesn't mean my chance of messing up in between is any less. Anyone can mess up anytime Joon, but giving up before even trying is the real failure here." He let go of my face.

"Listen, we're with you on this. Or at least I am. I won't care one bit even if you fall on the stage today. I'd be extremely happy and proud that you did your best." I gave him a nod.

He held my hand. I felt more comfortable. I wasn't perfectly okay, I was still quite nervous, but I didn't wanna give up. Like Hobi said, I have to do this for all of us.