Promise? [{CLEXA AU}]

Chapter Twenty-Two: Lying

"Alright Clarke, I'm sick of this. What the hell is wrong. You've been acting strange for weeks." Raven demanded an answer.

Two weeks had past since Clarke and Lexa last spoke, three since their kiss. The first week Clarke had tried to figure out what Lexa was hiding, the truth behind her. She gave up after that because the more she looked at her, thought about her, the more a craving grew. Clarke craved Lexa's lips on hers, she couldn't help it. The way the kiss felt for that single moment wasn't Enough and She hated herself for it.

     "Nothing, everything all good." She lied.

"Clarke! Fucking tell me what's up or I'll go ask you girlfriend." Raven yelled.

"Shut up!" Clarke snapped. It was Friday night, they were sitting at a both in grounders waiting for Octavia to come back with their food. There weren't a lot of people but Clarke still didn't want anyone getting ideas. "Shes not my girlfriend, and it's none of your business."

"Chill Clarke, but whatever, if you need to talk about it I'm here." Raven sighed, she wasn't gonna fight her anymore.

Octavia appeared back at the table, drinks in hand. "What'd I miss?" Raven shot her a look, it was a touchy subject now. "So what's are plan for this weekend then?" She went another route.

"I'm down for anything. Clarke any ideas?"

"I've got no clue." Clarke responded vaguely, she was staring of into the distance, her mind somewhere else.

She was caught on the word 'girlfriend.' She was told all her life it should be 'Boyfriend,' it was the normal. Maybe she didn't want normal, maybe she just wanted to be herself. It wasn't a maybe, she did.

     Lying to herself was getting harder and harder. She knew by now it was a lie, but she wasn't sure she was ready to admit it. Her brain was swirling, most of her thoughts consumed by Lexa. Lexa, she knew if it was just peer interest this wouldn't be happening. She certainly wouldn't be thinking of Lexa's lips.

     "I'm something." She said out-loud, randomly. Raven and Octavia stopped their conversation.

      "What?"

      "You're right, I'm not straight, I'm anything but." Raven and Octavia's both went wide, they weren't expecting this. Clarke stood up walking walking out the door of the coffee shop before either of the girls could say something.

     "What just happened?" Raven asked Octavia.

      "I have no idea, but I want to see this go down." Both girls quickly stood up, following Clarke out of the door. Shit was about to go down.

     Clarke had no idea where she was going or what she was doing. All thoughts gone her body moved, walking towards the place she possibly had a chance. A chance for everything.

     Clarke turned a corner then other walking through the little clearing that was so familiar. She saw a figure she knew well sitting at the edge of the dock. "Lexa...." she said quietly but loud enough to get her attention.

      Raven and Octavia kept their distance, watching from just outside the clearing.

     "Clarke." She said her name in a heavy accent, not even looking to know who it was. Lexa remanded at the edge of the dock, just staring at the water, feet gracing of the surface lightly. She looked so peaceful.

When Clarke didn't say anything else, she turned to look. Clarke was crying, Clarke wasn't even sure why herself. Lexa moved from her spot coming closer to her. "Clarke... what's wrong?"

"I've been so confused, still am. I've made so many excuses for myself...." she trailed off. "You know what, I don't even know why I'm here, I'll leave." Clarke turned to walk away but felt a hand on her waist pulling her back. She faced Lexa again, her hand staying put on her waist.

"Finish." Lexa said.

"I don't know you, and you don't know me. I know you probably even hate me, or whatever. But I realized something today. Well I think I've know it for a while but refused it..."

Lexa cut her off, leaning in taking Clarke's lips on her own. Kissing her soft, slow. Lexa knew she shouldn't, but in this moment she didn't care. The moved slow and in sync, feelings unraveling between them.

"I don't know you." Clarke whispered softly when they pulled back.

Lexa wanted so badly push her away, the farther the better, but the look on Clarke's face wouldn't let her. "Then why don't we change that."